Bloody Mary has come to visit....

It came Yesterday! I am having a really bad period this month. It is messier then usual, the pads are overflowing, and I am in a pissed off mood this morning. I am not usually the jealous type. I might get a bit of envy from time to time and wish I could covet such and such..but normally I am a happy camper. I made the mistake of looking at pictures on Facebook. My neighbor UP and Over on the other street. Her daughter is friends with Natalie. Her house was a piece of shit for years because she could not afford to fix it. (divorced, no alimony) Her girls wore hand me downs, and they never had heat in the winter. But this woman always had this AIR about her. That she was above us all. That she was some hot chick ticket and she did not need to associate with the peons. I am not the only one that felt that way. Well, she hooked up with a contractor dude. That is all I have to say. I have been happy for her and her girls because the house (on the outside) has been looking really nice. Good for them.
Until I saw those pictures on FB.....
Bitch has all new shiny appliances, gas range, fancy cabinets, all new furniture, all new hardwood floors, nice tile in the kitchen.. Oh and she has a new car too. Now the bitch really walks around like her shit smells like Godiva.
You know..I will never have that unless I win the lottery or we eat $1 store tv dinners, sit in the dark, freeze to death, and never spend a dime. That is the ONLY way we will ever get that. So I am being a jealous bitch. Because I am tired of having broken things, subfloor for flooring, 25 year old carpetting, used furniture, etc etc etc. I am sad that I am too fucking useless that I cannot have a job. If I was still working, life would be so different. But no, I have to be like this.
*This is my period and the winter blues talking..Can you tell?*
 I should have never looked because that is going to grate at me ALL DAY!
 See, Fred and I were going to go out today to celebrate our birthdays. We were going to eat out and go to the casino. We save for this every year. We blow $200 once a year (whoop de doo) and blow off some steam. That would make me feel better today. But his ass wants to wait until dark because of FOOTBALL!
It is going to snow later. It is going to be cold later. But the football is more important.
Still in a rotten mood. I might just tell him fuck off and I will just stay in bed all day. That is all I am good for anyway right now.

OMG! Fucking all new appliances BITCH!

I will be better tomorrow..I swear. :)