I got a new computer!!!

OMG!!!!!!

 Okay, it is new to me. It is not completely new but it is. My friend, A, had bought her mother a computer when she moved in with her. The woman never used it. And when I say never, I mean never. Her Mom went into a nursing home recently and we had to clean out all of her Mom`s hoard. Today I asked if I could buy the laptop off of her. I needed it badly especially now that I am working on helping her sell off the hoard. She said take it. *Are you sure?* *Yes, bitch!*

   TWIRL TWIRL TWIRL TWIRL

I have a letter N! NNNNNNNnnnnnnnNNNNNNNNnnnnnnNNNNNNNNnnnnnnNNNNNN!
   
My Mother`s Day is okay. I got some flowers and they are making me dinner. It is not a spectacular display but it is something. I have nothing to complain about for this day is good.
I am gonna go now. I finished with the virus protection and deleted all the game programs my friend added. I want to give her a good defrag.
 So I will post this week. I will be planting veggies so I want to share. OMG I HAVE A NNNNNN!
 
 

Mother`s Day 2014

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 First off, I want to hope that if you are a Mom or a Mother figure..that you have a great day today. I hope you are praised, pampered, loved, and treated like the Queen that you are. You deserve it!


   It is a really nice day out there today. The pollen count is high. I can tell because I ran out of Zyrtec and I am broke. This will be a fun. LOL Itching will commence! I will survive it until payday. My plans for this beautiful day are to cook a massive (8lb) eye of round roast beef. I will do mashed potatoes and creamed spinach. This is my gift to myself. I wanted to make sure I had something to look forward to today. I might make gravy too. Oh yeah.

 I have plans for the day. I have to clean the food pantry because ants found the jar of honey. I want to sweep up all the debris off the patio. I promised to help Kid #2 start packing her stuff. And Kid #1 wants me to color her hair. Plus there is laundry to do. There are always dishes in the sink.
   I guess there is no pampering today for this Mama.

 That is okay. I have come to terms with that. I realized a couple weeks ago that the day was fast approaching. I decided that I was not going to hint around or chide them for not remembering. Or worse, Scold them for remembering that it is Mother`s Day on Mother`s Day. Then you get half assed apologies as your gift.  For whatever reason, I am not worthy of being remembered on this day. I will probably cry in the bathtub later but for right now..it is just Sunday.  <---that just sounded really bitter but that was not my intention. After so many of these MD`s that come and go..I know that I just do not deserve it like other Mothers. 

  This day will go and I will be okay on Monday.

  I have a 8lb eye of round roast to get in the oven sometime soon. She is a beautiful beast that i bought around Christmas for a really good price. I saved it. Today is her day. She will make me happy. I have not had a roast beef in forever. I have made pot roast but not a roast beef. My Dad made nice ones. That is a good food memory. I hope I do the roast it`s justice. It will be very garlicy.


Off to do my list. Have a great day!

Happy Mother`s Day 2013

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Happy Mother`s Day to all the moms out there!! 

If you want to stay warm and fuzzy from your high of being loved by your kin..do not read further. It will burst your bubble and I do not want to do that. I am just venting because I do not have anyone else to vent to. (yes, hubs but he has heard enough) So I vent to myself on here. It is cathartic really. Some may say pathetic but fuck you to you, you narrow assed hick. <--nobody in particular. 

  I am guessing one of two things. 
Either someone told my children about my blog posts OR they really do not like me. Ever since MD, they have both been shunning me. Oh and if I ask them a question or statement, I get short, curt answers that hurt my feelings.
I am not going to ask. So the feeling of this weekend get to continue on. IF one of their friends told them, Thank you very much. Now I have no place to open up about my feelings that is free to me. I might as well just curl up into a fucking ball now cause I am such a bad parent.

Crappiest Weekend on the Planet Begins.

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 The depression is already settling in nicely today.

I have a feeling the kids have been told about my MD rant. Otherwise they are treating me extra crappy for some other reason and I do not want to know.

So I am editing myself. We shall see if I am back talking about anything else but sunny shit. That will be fun!

Cake Cake Cake!

A lovely bunch of cupcakes

Fred just brought this home. It consists of vanilla and chocolate cupcakes. We were all talking about how we wanted some kind of dessert tonight with the Loco Moco. I was not feeling it cause I had just made a batch of Lavender Jelly.
 Isn't that sweet? I am glad there are five of us and I will make them eat the  majority. I have been hating my fat self lately.

I get a purple flower!

Sultry Saturday

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Love the colors in the picture!

It is so much warmer and sunnier outside today then in the past week. 63 deg F at noon here.  No more jackets needed. I did some work this morning before I went on the computer. Shockers! I mowed and weed whacked the side yard and the patio. Lu and Perl were having issues peeing and pooping in the tall grass (for them) so I took care of it. I left the front and the top yard for Fred. I started to break a sweat after I filled a bag with some wet leaves. I piled some branches off too the side and I came in. I will putter around the house and I want to make jelly because I told Dale I would bring her a sample. We shall see if it gets done. That is going to have to be done today though. Let me finish my Ramen first.

 I will not be posting at all while I am gone to Jersey to Dale`s house. I will be leaving the laptop here, I do not like posting on the blogger app from my phone, and I will have a nice big post for you all when I am fresh on Friday. I will take pictures wherever I am allowed.

Pretty soon I will have some BIG NEWS to share. There is life changing stuff on the horizon that actually can be considered really good. I am not going to talk about it until it is all squared away. Then I will do a nice long post about it. It is good, believe me! I am trying to change my life for the better. I shall talk about it in the coming weeks. I am dying to talk about it but I will be good and zip the lip.

The only other thing that I can think of to talk about is that I am going to try something new for dinner. Fred and I have been wanting to try something called Loco Moco for quite awhile. It is Hawaiian fast food. White rice, hamburger patties, yolky eggs, and brown gravy. We will either LOVE it or hate it. We shall see.

I do not know if I am going to be posting tomorrow. We shall see. It matters on what mood that I am in. I could be in a great mood or a really pissy mood.

Happy Mother`s Day from me to you!

Bacon for Mother`s Day.

 

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That`s right. I got some bacon for Mother`s day. It was nice and crispy and made with love...by my husband. He and I went out to dinner last night for a pre-Mother`s day thing. I did not want to go out to eat today with all the grandmas with their Spring suits and corsages. So we snuck out last night, drove to Mystic, and had a nice Steak Loft steak. Yummy!

 So it is 953am and my darling daughters are still asleep. I have already washed some dishes and pans..to make it easier for Fred to cook our Mother`s Day breakfast. He called his Mother this morning and I have no idea what we are going to do today. I want some help with hanging a new smoke detector (ohhh so over the edge exciting!!!) or maybe we can finish priming our bedroom. We have not even come close to finishing that room. I want it to be done. 

   I was thinking about my Mother yesterday. She passed away 9 years ago at the age of 79 from complications of diabetes (type 2) and Parkinson`s disease.

  She was not a well woman for most of her adult life. She suffered from Bipolar disorder or back then it was called Manic Depression. It was unfortunate for her that she had to deal with that mental illness back in the 1950s-1970s. There was not much to offer in a way of help.

 So my childhood was not the best but I would not change a thing. It made me who I am. She took care of me. I was fed, clothed, cared for when ill, and brought up to adulthood. That is more then others can say. I knew she was not okay so I did not blame her.

I become sad on Mother`s Day. Not because I am forgotten or I did not get what I hoped for. It is just that I am 42 years old and I do not have a Mother. She is not there to answer questions.. "How long do you cook a 10 lb rump roast?" I have the same pain in the smart ass attitude that she had. The "I do not give a fuck what you think" way of living. I do care what people think but I can have days when I really do not give a fuck..hehehe

So today I am not going to give a fuck. It is MY day dammit. I am going to do and say whatever the hell I want to. Now I wonder what they got me for a gift????

Gardening and girls day.

Front and middle beds are mine

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  It has been warming up enough for me to get out there and plant. I wanted to start you off from the beginning. I will take pics of things I am growing at the house too. These are my two community garden beds. I pay $20 a year for the use of the two of them. They are filled with loamy compost. I only have some onions that I wintered over from last year in the background. But in this front bed I planted two types of beets, spinach, bibb lettuce, mesculin, one lone broccoli plant (first time) and that is about it. I want to buy some tomato plants this weekend so that I can plant some in the middle bed. Not the whole thing because I want to make room for other vegs. No corn this year. It shadowed out my other plants.  Today I made a sort of string cage in the garden for the sugar snap peas I planted. I hope they do well because I really like them. My onions are growing and my Pak choy has a flower on one of the plants. I need to snip it. Never mind..I just read. It has bolted aka gone to seed. I guess those were not good. But I found out that growing pak choy from seed in your garden is best. i will let them go to seed, collect the seeds, and just do it by seed this time.
   Everything is so green and lovely in the yard. I try really hard to ignore all the things on the house that need to be fixed and just look at my plants and trees.

   Friday I made an appointment for myself and my friend made an appointment for herself to get our toes done. Pedicures! I am also going to finally give up the growing trend and have the eyebrows waxed. A. is a pedi virgin like I was. I told her not to worry. It will be all good.  This is a Mother`s day gift to myself just in case I get shafted. It has happened before. I have been forgotten on Mom`s day 2x and this is not when they were babies either! Grown teenagers. So no excuse. I am being proactive. I will just make myself happy.