I had a virus!!!!!! And other boring life stuff

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To be exact, I had a Malware and a Trojan on the computer. I am not going to say WHO acquired it cause any of us could have done it. But I was able to get rid of it and it was all free!
I followed a list on how to get rid of it myself and it told me to download Malwarebytes free cleaner to help. It didn't work. But I found their free techs in a forum and one person (Elise) helped me for the past two days. She had me search with this program, scrub with that program and eventually we got rid of everything. I am forever grateful and when I get some extra cash next month, I am going to hit her donate button and give her some money. The chica saved me over $100 and a headache if I had to deal with Dell again.

  I am all better from my trip. It took quite a few days but I am finally feeling a teensy bit normal. I called the gyno about the fact that I got my period last Monday! It was just as bad as it always has been and I had pain. He had me go in today for bloodwork. CBC is Complete Blood Count. I think he is checking to see if I am anemic. I would not be surprised. I told my shrink last month that I have been so exhausted lately and over sleeping. If it is not one thing, it is another. This will mean that I will have to succumb to another surgery and have a hysterectomy (leaving the ovaries). I am not thrilled but I am. I know that sounds weird but I will be glad to be done with the pain and mess but I will miss that part of me. That is what grew my children. You know me..I will keep you all up to date on that.

I have decided on a new tattoo but I have to wait for the money. I will save for it. It came to me. On my right wrist I want a bracelet. Chelsea and Natalie Chelsea facing out and Natalie facing in. The C and the N are touching and their names wrap around my wrist. I do not want it completely around but we shall see. Sound cool?
I know they screwed me on Mother`s day but I have always wanted to have a tattoo that represented them and that is what it is going to be.

Look at the snazzy gift I got from my friend Agran! It is a cup cozy but it screamed at me to put it on my water bottle. So it is my bottle cozy. So moustachy! So hipster! I love it!

Now I will drink a lot more water and look fancy while doing it. You know you are jeluz.

Full Circle

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 I saw my *Mom*, Carmen, yesterday. She was in town and wanted to stop by. She had something to give me. This green vase.
 I found this vase at a yard sale about 10 years ago and I probably paid $1 for it. I bought it for my friend Rhonda for her new rental house. She was using green in her motif and it was perfect! She loved it. And I can see that it was never broken so she treated it with love. Carmen saved it from being tossed as her son was cleaning out Rhonda`s things from her apartment. She knew that I should have it. I now know what color scheme I want for the living room. Touches of green. It did not make me sad. It made me happy that I was given a small piece of her. It lets me know that she loved this vase enough to not let it get lost or broken on all of her moves.

Today I am going to be doing more laundry. I need to start thinking about the pack for the four days in Jersey I have to also make a list of all the things I need to bring with me to Jersey. I want to bring the Kindle, which I need to charge....brb.....going to get it! Okay, she is charging. I have plenty of books to read on there. I am reading Mozart`s Wife right now. So if I have trouble falling asleep, I can do that.
 I leave early in the morning on Monday and I come home in the evening on Thursday. I will have to get something at the store for me to eat on the way home. I do not like the food on the train..Yuck!
We are going to go to the Mutter Museum! I am excited. I have wanted to go there ever since I saw a tv show all about the place. Fred is uber jealous. I have to make sure I have money set aside for us to go there and then there are thrift shops to go to and I am cooking dinner one night. I have an idea of how much I am going to need. Good thing I get paid this week. I wonder how the family is going to be without me around. Dogs included. I do so much for them all on a daily basis. Now I will be gone for four days. FOUR WHOLE DAYS! I will come home on Thursday but the train comes in at night. I am going to make some pasta sauce for the fridge so that Raymond can make spaghetti one night. Hot dogs and buns, taco night, and then what? Natalie refuses to let me really teach her how to cook. Chelsea will be fine if she has all the foods she needs. I am going to give Fred some cash just in case they need anything. They are all adults and I worry. Sad, huh?

I have some news from the Gyno. I went for my post op appointment yesterday. He said I am healing well. He thinks the fact that I still have to wear a thin pad every day is a good sign. It probably worked for the bleeding, so that was a success. Unfortunately, I still have pain. He says that if the pain gets worse to the point I cannot take it anymore, I will have to have a hysterectomy. But that is not for now. The pain I get is not horrific. I can survive it. If it gets bad, I will go the next step to have my uterus removed. He said he would do it through the belly button. I would stay over one night and go home the next day. So I think it was a good visit.

No more flooding for Meh!

Just a quick update

*267*<-----I had not been on the scale awhile!

Updates are good because sometimes you all probably wonder what the hell happened with this or that.
I will start with my ablation. May 2nd will be 2 weeks since the procedure. I still have to wear a pad. One pad for the whole day. I have been reading and I have noticed that the more that I do physically, the more I will leak. It is said that once you are done with the discharge, your basically all healed. I hope it ends soon because I am tired of it. I found out that some woman suffer back pain with this procedure. I will let him know when I have my follow up appointment..if it is still bothering me.

The Lavender Jelly is a hit. All the people that I have given it to so far love it. I went and bought more lavender today at the co-op and some more canning jars. I miss wrote how much the lavender actually is. It is actually $46.59 per pound! Now, I buy a cup and that costs me a little over $2. But that is how special this jelly is.

This is a Ball Collection Elite Wide Mouth (8oz)Half Pint jars. Last year I bought two packs of four for $4 each at Walmart. I liked them and I did not like them. They are a pain in the butt in the canner. But I love the shape. Guess what? There is a reason they are called Elite. They do not make them anymore!! So I went to Walmart this afternoon and found two packages up on the top shelf. Last two. Still $4 each. I snagged them up. I will save them for either the lavender jelly or something special. This one in the picture is for A-Gran. I have to  mail it out to her on Friday (i will have P.O. money then).

 At first I did not know if I would like the Kindle. Then Angie told me about Pixel of Ink on Facebook and I was in heaven. They post all the free Kindle books that Amazon is giving away on that particular day. I have been reading. I read one short story called 12/21/12 that was about the end of the world. That story pissed me off so much at the end, I wanted to throw the Kindle. It was confusing towards the end. WTF! Do not read that one. I deleted it from my list. I am reading a book now called Mozart`s Wife. It is really good. I got it as a freebie but I heard it is like $3 to buy. So the Kindle is good to have. I still love regular books but this will be good when I am on the train.

Speaking of the train, I am going away soon. In a little more then two weeks, I will be on the train to Jersey for four great days. I cant wait! I wonder how my family is going to survive without me?

Is there anything else? Not that I can think of. It is a nice cool and sunny Sunday. Fred and I have been cleaning. I am taking a break to be on here cause I have not been on at all today. Chelsea is out with friends. Fred and Natalie are watching the movie Hanna. I am going to make tacos for dinner.

Have a nice evening!

Monthly Reminder

She a cutie!

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I have said before that I frequent a site called Monthly Info. It is a period tracker and I think some women use it to know when they are ovulating. I used it so I would know when it was coming. I did not want to have to count anymore. Plus my periods were all over the map anyway, that I was always wrong. After you have been using it for a while, it can average out when your next period is even when your cycle times are crazy. Give it a try. Why am I talking about this now? Because I got an email today telling me that my period is two days away.Ahahahaha!
I am feeling good today. I took the dogs out this morning. I did some raking. I hooked the hose up outside. I think after I do what I want to do in here, I am going to get some work done outside. No lifting! But I wanted to finish cleaning out all the beds. I hooked up the hose too so that means it is OFFICIALLY spring!
I think I am going to bake some cookies too. I am in the mood. Not in the actual eating but the filling of my massive cookie jar. I want to do something today. Oh! How about the lavendar jelly? I think I will do THAT!

No heavy lifting

No tub baths either!

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No heavy lifting until Monday. No tub baths for three weeks! How cruel is that?? It is an absolutely gorgeous day outside for yard clean up and I cannot do any of it. It is a tad chilly but the sun is out. So I wouldn't sweat as much doing yard clean up. Dammit! Watch it get hot as hellions on Monday when I am allowed to do stuff!

 Everything went fine. I was under light anesthesia because it was not an invasive procedure. I was not aware of what was going on but they had to wake me once to clear snot from my throat. I had post nasal drip from my allergies. I did not talk to the Dr afterward but he knows Fred, I gave permission, and Fred relayed. It went very well. He almost could not do the procedure because of the size of my uterus. It is 11cm (put one hand in a fist, and put the other on top) and he is not allowed to do any that are 12 cm or above. So I have a BIG uterus! This is the reason for the pain and the worry. This is the reason we were getting this done, besides the bleeding and cramps on a constant basis. My uterus is really big. Hopefully this will make the thickening go down. I do not know how that works actually. All I know is I am in NO pain in the hootchie and there is very minimal bleeding going on. I have a slight headache but that is from the days events yesterday.

Today is my friend`s funeral. I wish that I could be there. I just know that I cannot. I have already let the family know that I couldnt but I still feel really badly. Not crying anymore but still sad when I think of her.

So today is going to be a lolligag type of day. I am cooking bacon right now. I am making breakfast. Then I will watch some Netflix, play online games, maybe read a bit in bed before I take a nap...lazy day. Do not worry about me. I am good.

Lobotomy Day

This is going to be short and sweet. I have to leave here in a few minutes for the hospital. I am waiting on Fred to finish getting ready.
I am not nervous at all so do not worry about me. It is a simple procedure. It is just easier and less painful if they do it under general anesthesia.

NO MORE PERIODS!!!!!!! hopefully!

So I will be back around tomorrow or I will add a little note here to let you all know I am okay/

Ciao.

Surgery is a go

This would be a cool tattoo, Yes?

 I had my appointment with my GP/Endocronologist and I am cleared for surgery/procedure. Woot!   No more periods for this girl here! Woot!
  I got a call from the hospital asking all those questions and I have to take my nose ring out, again! That means pain with having it put back in again. I just checked and the new place our piercer works is closed on Mondays and Tuesdays. Great. So I will have to take it out and go through the pain of having her use a taper to open it back up again. Ugh! It hurts. I am such a big baby.
GP changed my insulin for when I eat my meals. I needed a little boost. He also told me to use Zyrtec for my allergies. He says that it is the best out of the leading three but can make you drowsy, so to use it when I go to bed. Then the woozies will wear off by morning and it works 24/7. I have been no good all day. My eyes have been a mess with tears and goo.
 I got an email from Rhonda`s Mom. She told me that friendship is a two way street and that I do not need to beat myself up over not talking to her for so many months. We will start again like we were never apart. She is going to need a lot of emotional support. I miss her and her cooking.
Okay, bon bons are in the freezer. I have to put chocolate on them. Mail them out to my friend for her birthday. Then it is taco night for dinner. I am going to make some guacamole. YumYumYum!

Have a good night!

Allergies are the bomb!

Creeping phlox is starting to open.

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   I am waiting for my knock off/generic allergy medicine to kick in. My eyes are all gooey. I usually have some nice name brand type of pill but times are tough and I cut back. The store brand actually does work. Believe it or not. I just took it though so I will bitch and complain until it kicks in. This is the front of my house. No sidewalks on our street. Ignore that pile of leaves that I must pick up. That is creeping phlox. When we bought the house, there was one big spot of it on the wall in the middle. I painstakingly pulled the whole thing apart and spread it out over the entire wall. It took a good five years for it to really fill in but I am proud of it. I treat that phlox better then any other plant or tree or flower in my yard. They get a spruce up in the spring. All the dead stuff is trimmed and I fill in any empty spots. Then in the Fall I trim it all up close to the wall. I do not like when it gets really long on the wall because then you have to deal with alot of dead greenery. Since we do not have sidewalks, the snow/ice removal stuff tends to spread pretty close to the plant and kills parts of it. Hence why the phlox gets a Brazilian every October.
  Ahhh! I think it is starting to work a bit. 
 My friend`s viewing is going to be Wednesday night and the funeral is going to be on Thursday morning. I am very sad about the fact that I will not be able to go. I called her Mom and left a message on her answering machine. I let her know that I sent her an email. I want to keep in touch with her as much as possible. I do not want to let our separation to happen again.

Feed me!

 It is supposed to get really hot here today. Like in the upper 80s. I made Fred get the fan last night for our room. It was that hot up there. I am all clean and nice for my Dr. visit today at 1130am. It is for my surgical clearance. I got the call for my registration and everything so that is all set. I have to be at the hospital at 830am on Wednesday. Hopefully it is not a super long wait for the surgery time. I have been told that the ablation takes no time at all. In and out in an hour. Then I will go to recovery, then my room, wake my ass up some more, get me dressed and home. I already have my pain pills (VICODIN).
 After my appointment, I am going to change and put on my trusty bandana. I am going to clean my bedroom top to bottom so that it is lovely for my recovery. I am not afraid to sweat!  No dust, no garbage, all the clothes put away, and the window open. Tonight I am going to make a nice taco dinner for everyone including guacamole.  I was going to treat myself to a pedicure tomorrow but the girls are going to pay for it! So I used my pedicure money to buy a new pair of sport flip flops. These are Champion ones from Payless. $24. I paid less then that for my old Nike ones but they are like the same thing. They are cushioning in a way that exercises your legs but also gives your feet some stability. I have very high arches. I cannot wear just any of flip flop. And I love flip flops! So I just get some nice black ones that go with everything.
My last pair died a horrible death by Ruby. I was using them around the house but they were not fit for public viewing. Oh no! 

It is almost 11am. I need to get  moving. I got to separate the dishes so when I get back, I can get the kitchen done. Lots to do!

Happy Monday all!
  
 

Early Riser

I wish it was a Pepsi

I woke up at 6am. Somebody left the ceiling fan on in the dining room. It is directly underneath my bed. It has been noisy lately. Not super nosy like we need to get rid of that thing, but just age. And we can hear it at night if someone left it on. I was passed out and did not hear it till this morning. Once I hear it, I am up. Damn kids!
 I have lots to do today. My *procedure* is on Wednesday so I have to cram in everything beforehand. I am going to finish making the bon bons that I started last night. I have some sewing of rips to do. I am going to plant my pansies today on the front porch. I am also going to my friend`s house for the evening. I am making dinner. Meatloaf and mashed potatoes. She HATES to cook. I wanted to go visit her before her vacation was over and before I had my work done. I am not superstitious or anything. I just want to get things done before I go under.
 Natalie has a shit load of history homework to do. SHITLOAD. She waits until the last minute to do stuff. I told her that I would help her. Not actually do the homework but if she has any questions, go for it. I will be glad when she is finally done with the high school stuff. Then she can move on to bigger and better things.  Then I have to do Rainbow`s taxes. I am going to do them on his laptop and he is going to watch so that he can do it himself after that. He is the son that I did not get stretch marks from.
Oh and it might be hot as confined balls here next week when I have the surgery! Isnt that just lovely? My hootchie coo will be in pain, I will be sleeping off anesthesia, and I will be sweating.
 Yeah, this post is all over the map. I have no clear vision like other blogs. I just spit whatever I think out and my fingers type away. But that is okay. Some will say this is boring shit, why bother? Others will like reading about my life.
Today is just not a stellar blog post..that is all. I am not Pulitzer worthy. I am trying REALLY HARD! hehehehe
 I got nothing.
Okay, I do have something.
Not last night but the night before I had a dream that my house was on fire and I was trying, unsuccessfully, to put it out.
There have been a series of fires going on around the city lately. Last night there was a fire and two people died. Two days before there was a fire a couple miles away and the place was gutted. The fire last night, there was a fire around the corner a month or so ago and that was gutted too. People are speculating whether or not the Norwich arsonist has come to town or if we have our own fire bug. The fire department has never said any of the fires so far this year have been arson. One of the houses is tied to a mortgage scam where many people are going to prison. So it makes many of us in town uneasy. Is it just a coincidence or something else?

She can see clearly now.

Lu had her shots today and she also got her first summer cut of the season. Her tail is also blue. She was strutting her stuff around the vet and house afterward. She loves when she gets a haircut. She is very afraid when I pass her off to the groomer and I think she does not want to be there. But she stands still for her to cut her and she is a very good girl. I wish I could have her groomed on a regular like every two months but sometimes I cannot afford it. She was the Shaggy D.A. when I brought her in. But Melanie, the groomer, said that Lu was the best of the bunch. She had six dogs to do that day and Lu was the easiest. I guess I was not the only one that let the dogs hair grow. As you can see, she is my little baby. I love her very much. She is spoiled rotten. Oh, that is Ruby`s rump in the foreground. She thinks she is a small dog.

 So basically, I am going to try to get much done today and tomorrow. I have a GP appointment on Monday that they crammed me in for. I have a pedicure appointment for Tuesday afternoon and then I have the ablation. Jesus, I hope it does not hurt too badly. I mean afterward. You know me. I will be bitching and whining if it does!
okay..I need more coffee.

Wednesday was a Hot Mess!

Someone is not pleased

*273*  <----I need to lay off the stress eating and the Easter candy!!
***This is going to be a looonnnnggg post so you might want to get a beverage.***

   First off, see my curb picked chairs! My friend had them outside of her spa, free for the taking. They are gorgeous and sturdy. I have a plan now! I am going to paint these and two stools (from same person) in the same colors. Then I am going to get some fabric for the reupholstering the cushions and I have a big foot stool that needs to be re-done also. This is part of my re-decorating. I need to get rid of this cabinet behind me. The person that was gonna take it fell through. I think it is going to end up outside and then eventually the dump. I do not want to deal with creepy craigslist people. *shaking head*. I want to get rid of it because it does not fit my needs anymore. I want another wire shelving unit like the one I have. I want to use it to stock my canning. I will have it anchored to the wall so the cats do not mess up my goodness.
So nice freebie pick, huh? All the animals and our big butts like it!

  The chairs were the highlight of my day after all the bullshit I went through. Ugh. We will start with the pre-op appointment with the Dr. I went in thinking that my outpatient surgery will be April 18, 2012. I go in there and they tell me that it has been moved to May 3rd and I need to get medical clearance from my GP. I was never told I needed to go get the medical clearance. I was mad because no one called me to tell me things had been moved. I specifically scheduled my trip to see Dale with enough time to heal. Now what?
   It was a long visit. I was scheduled for 1030 and I did not actually see my Dr until 1220. Yup. He explained later (without breaking hippa laws) that he had a patient that needed to go to hospital but she was hesitant. So he had to explain to her the severity of her situation. THAT is why it took soooo long. I basically tell him that I am not pleased. I was under the assumption that I was going to be having surgery  next week. How is this going to effect my trip? He said that it would not be prudent for me to go on the trip if I had surgery May 3. I said, Then I guess we will have to schedule my surgery after my trip! Non-refundable tickets! I was nice to him because he is a really nice guy. He just has some brusk office workers. They deal with hormonal bitches all day long. Not saying it is not right but I get it. He left and said he would be right back. He cracked the whip. They were able to get another patient to change their surgery date with me AND they were able to get hospital scheduling to change also. I have to go see my GP on Monday (squeezing me in) to get  medical clearance for my diabetes because I have surgery on Wednesday. Phew! It is because he is friends with Fred. I know to some that would be considered favoritism and I totally agree with you. My husband has worked at that hospital for 23 years and he is a friendly guy. He knows a lot of people. Nurses, Doctors, higher ups, and lower downs. I am a very lucky lady to have Fred in my corner.  So I left and I was good.

   I picked up Natalie so we could run errands.
 Now, you all know me to be a nice, loving person that would do anything for you. I do have a slight temper that usually is directed towards my family..dogs included. I joke that I am gonna slap a bitch but that is usually in my mind cause the days of tussling are over now. Fatty don't do jail cells.

I spent more money then I should on necessities but we will just be poor for the week. I have done it before. As long as there is gas, food, and I have my Vicodin for my surgery..all is okay.

So I go to the 7-11 down the street from my house. I am a regular. It is in my neighborhood. I have lived in this part of NL for 18 years. I go in to get my usual..Loaf of Calise bakery round Italian sliced bread, a small sized Gulp of Diet Pepsi, and $25 in gas. This woman works there now that is quite weird and whenever she works, the lines are long. So I tell her gas for the big white Jeep..over there----> She punches in whatever, takes my money and I am on my way. Natalie is in the Jeep. I go to pump the gas but the pump isn't turned on. I actually said. Oh God. This has happened before with her. One cold night I bought $20 in gas, she didn't turn the pump on and then she said that she had no record of me paying for gas. I told her to turn it on. After about 10 minutes or so, she did.
This time was different.
I came in and politely said Could you please turn the pump on?  I am not going to go thru the entire conversation but the gist of it was..I never gave her $25 to pump gas. She did not even remember me from the point of walking to my car and back. She did not even remember our transaction!! She came out to the pump and told me that I was a liar. That I had already pumped the gas. I said, HOW? You said I never gave you any money? I was standing there in front of a group of people in line, yelling at this woman to either give me my money or my gas. I said, "This is not the first time you have done this to me." She says, "I have never seen you before in my entire life!" OMG!! She waits on me all the frigging time. Someone is either off their meds or taking meds that they shouldnt. Then I screamed "Where is Mohammed???" (he is the boss). He won`t be in till the morning. I wanted her to take my name and number cause I was going to talk to Mohammed in the morning. Oh yes I was! I asked her. "What are you gonna do when you cash out later and realize you are $25 over?" She said" it wont happen". I was so pissed, I actually went to another store and picked up a lemonade 4 loko malt.
 Later after grocery shopping I come home and there is a message...from her. She said that I could come down to the 7-11 and pick up my $25. VINDICATION!!!!
I go down there and the young guy is on. He gives me the money and tells me that dummy had turned on the kerosene pump behind the store. That is where my $25 went. That is why she could not find it at first. He asked me if I was going to tell Mohammed. "He will be in at 8am tomorrow morning!" He proceeds to tell me that this lady always messes up and because he works after her..blames him for it. So he really wanted me to tell him.
So this morning I did. I tattle taled. I have not done that since I was a little girl but I do not care. He needed to know.
I walked up to him and shook his hand and said my name is Heidi. Even though he has known me for over 15 years, he doesn't know my name. I told him what happened. When I told him the part when she called me a liar, his whole demeanor changed. He said, You are not a liar, I know you! He made me get a free gulp soda. I said that if I am coming for gas or anything and she is here, I will shop elsewhere. Nothing against him at all. I just do not want to encounter her again. I told him that I was very strong but I felt like I was in the Twilight Zone. She was going to get hit by me so I had to not be around her anymore.
 So she will either still be working there or she will get fired. I do not know. Part of me feels badly if she gets fired but she should not be working customer service. She was pissy at me from the moment I walked back into the store.

Then I scored those gorgeous chairs (i am sitting in one now), and I took Natalie and Raymond to chinese buffet. They had seafood galore and I was sooo happy! I was not cooking after the day I had.

Today i am going to make Fred`s rubbed chicken wings and french fries for dinner. I think I will get some lettuce at Pezzello`s and make a nice salad too.
.Natalie said she was shocked. She had NEVER seen me yell at someone other then family and it scared her a little. She was proud of me because I never swore at the woman the whole time until the end.

That was my day yesterday...hope yours was mucho better!

Be Gone MaryMary!

I need to get baskets filled for my *kids*

*270* <----yes, I gained some weight! Grrr!

 I had my V whisperer appointment today with Dr. M. He gave me some good news. That big old cyst is gone. In fact, all the cysts that I had were gone. Yay! Breathing a sigh of ever loving relief there. But I still have the pain. And my periods are all over the map. Right now, I am 4 days late. He says I probably never ovulated even though I had pain. So I am going to have the ablation done. Wednesday after Easter, April 18th. Update!!! My Pre-op is the Wednesday after Easter. Surgery is the following week on April 18th. So yeah, I need some more cold  medicine STAT!
 I had joked before that Fred wanted me to cook a ham, lasagna and all the trimmings and that there was NO WAY I would cook that much. Looks like it is a plan I will be down for the count on Wednesday, and maybe Thursday  I do not know how painful the internals will be and for how long. We will discuss all that on my pre-op appointment the week before.
So a 92% chance of no more periods ever. That does include the small instances of some spotting every 3 or 4 months.
I am actually excited about this. I hate my period. It has been heavy and hateful my entire life since the age of 11. I have ruined numerous outfits and it needs to be gone. But I still get to keep my hormones until menopause.
Oh. He told me that heredity plays a part in when you will go thru menopause. My mother had me at 46 so she probably went through change at 51 or so. He also said that smoking is a factor. It can take 7 years off your reproductive years. But since I quit, I should be okay as each year passes.

So that is all I know so far. No more cysts means no exploratory surgery or removing of ovaries at this time. Ablation will stop my periods so that it will stop the thickening of my uterus AND the pain AND the monthly Nile river.
You can Google Ablation or here is a link to Novasure.