Blackberry Jam was successful!

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They jelled all nice for Mama. I was worried with the new pectin that it might stay running and all the picking would have been for nothing. They are beautiful! Next up is the strawberry jam.
No gym today. I had a cyst that popped and I do not think exercising is going to be good for my healing process. I will clean house instead and take long soaks in the bathtub.
My appointment with my GP is on Thursday and I have a appointment with gyno next Wednesday (cyst). We shall see if any of these things that are plaguing me are related, not related, and maybe just some fluke shit and I am fine and dandy. Still have cough, still tired as hell, but the lymph node is acting weird. Yesterday I could not feel it at all, today it is front and center. My luck..it will disappear on the day I go for my physical and he will say that it good! And I will be like, Umm, why was it there? Will he care about the other symptoms then?
I need to stop cause I can get myself worked up over shit. I have had so many health issues in my later years that have come up to actually be something and me not being a hypo. I just do not like when I get all wrapped up in it.
Ugh. Okay. I need to eat something for breakfast/lunch. Maybe a big old omelet with bacon!

Veggies up the ying yang

Baby Eggplants/Farmer`s Market

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I can fit into my purple pants!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been waiting since June to fit into them. They are from Salvation army $3. Deep purple cotton pants with the ties at the bottom to make them shorter. Nice Spring/Summer pair. They fit! And not like a fucking sausage!!! Woot! There it is! Woot! There it is! Okay I am done now..
What do I do though? I had Popeyes chicken and a apple fritter for lunch/breakfast. I was running late this morning so I never got any breakie in. See how I am justifying the apple fritter?
  I went to the Farmer`s market this morning and picked up quite a few goodies. I have a full bag of tomatillos and some jalapenos (dammit! I forgot the cilantro!) to make the green salsa to can. I got a few of the eggplants in the picture. Some purple, some of those red ones, the small long lavender/white ones. I bought a nice stuffing squash, tomatoes, garlic, onions, some ginger gold apples, and a big berry pie. oh and some stuffing mushrooms.
 So I had a good errand day and I have to take Natalie in a bit to get her eyebrows done. Mine will have to wait till next week. Do not always have it all the time.

Milo makes it impossible to type at computer

Right now at this very moment, Milo is standing on the backrest of the computer chair and he is pulling my braid. Little fucker!

   My physical is on the 26th. I still have the lymph node poking out in all it`s glory. I still have the cough too. Everything is still the same. At least it has not gotten worse for me. I would not even know what to consider worse..sleeping a couple hours longer? Cause my ass can sleep. I have to be dragged out of the bed kicking and screaming cause I am so exhausted. And this exhausted is different then my usual tired. When you have Chronic Fatigue..you can really tell if it the same old shit or a whole new set of problems.  So I wait another weekend. That makes it 3 weeks that I have noticed the Node.
 I have a whole 7 days to wait and it might be nothing. Doesn't that suck? I mean it IS good that it nothing but to fret over it all week long ...well... three weeks long and just have him say..oh that is nothing.
Speaking of..My mustache tat on my finger is going to have to be touched up. It is peeling and flaking away and there are empty spots were black should be. NOT GOOD! It will have to be free and it will have to hurt like a motherfucker. But this is the best piece so far. People love it. I whipped it out at the bank. One teller saw and she started laughing. Then I just stood there like nothing. They all thought she was nuts.
Jam this weekend!

It is probably nothing.

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I am tired.
 I have always been tired but this is different. On Saturday night, I went to bed at 11pm. I woke up at 2pm on Sunday. I then laid around all day and went to bed at midnight. It has been progressively getting worse. I have no energy either. I went to the gym with Natalie today and I had to force myself to finish the 10 minutes on the stairclimber.
There is other stuff. About two weeks ago, I noticed a bump on my neck near my ear but it was small and Fred said it was a tiny bit red. Did not hurt or itch but figured it was a bug bite. Two days ago, my hand brushed up in that area and felt a lump. Same area. Just bigger. It is not red. It does not hurt, I cannot tell it is there unless I touch it, it is hard, and it doesn't move. I know what it is. That is a lymph node. I have never had one become palpable before so i was freaking intrigued.
I went and stupidly looked on the Internet. I am not dumb. I do not go to like forums or WebMD. Reputable sites only. Mayo Clinic..stuff with .org.
I found out that if it hurts, it is usually from an infection. If it doesnt, well..that is a problem. I do not have any infections that I know of. I hope I do. I just had my teeth and gums looked at and he did not see infection. If there was any, I would be in a world of hurt anyway.
So I have to back track for a moment. I have been having chest pains on the left side of my upper chest near my shoulder. More of a boob pain. Does not make me think heart at all. It does not happen when I am doing anything. Part of me was thinking it was like stress or nerves. Then the cough started about a month ago. I know that when you are an ex smoker and you develop a cough, that is not good. I do not have a cold, allergies are not kicking me either, so I am bothered by the intermittent cough cough cough that I get.
 Part of the questions about lymph nodes is are you losing weight without even trying. Now, I have been doing the same as I have always done but now it is working. So does that mean I am working it or am I just losing weight as a side effect of something else. I have been cutting down my meals because I get stomach pains.
It is probably nothing.
I called my GP/Endo. I have an appointment on the 26th of this month. He says we will shoot for that appointment. If my symptoms get worse, call the office and they will bring me right in.
It is probably nothing at all. Maybe just an infection.
Just the fact one reputable site said that a swollen node for over 2 weeks needs to be looked at, worries me.