Mother`s Day 2014

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 First off, I want to hope that if you are a Mom or a Mother figure..that you have a great day today. I hope you are praised, pampered, loved, and treated like the Queen that you are. You deserve it!


   It is a really nice day out there today. The pollen count is high. I can tell because I ran out of Zyrtec and I am broke. This will be a fun. LOL Itching will commence! I will survive it until payday. My plans for this beautiful day are to cook a massive (8lb) eye of round roast beef. I will do mashed potatoes and creamed spinach. This is my gift to myself. I wanted to make sure I had something to look forward to today. I might make gravy too. Oh yeah.

 I have plans for the day. I have to clean the food pantry because ants found the jar of honey. I want to sweep up all the debris off the patio. I promised to help Kid #2 start packing her stuff. And Kid #1 wants me to color her hair. Plus there is laundry to do. There are always dishes in the sink.
   I guess there is no pampering today for this Mama.

 That is okay. I have come to terms with that. I realized a couple weeks ago that the day was fast approaching. I decided that I was not going to hint around or chide them for not remembering. Or worse, Scold them for remembering that it is Mother`s Day on Mother`s Day. Then you get half assed apologies as your gift.  For whatever reason, I am not worthy of being remembered on this day. I will probably cry in the bathtub later but for right now..it is just Sunday.  <---that just sounded really bitter but that was not my intention. After so many of these MD`s that come and go..I know that I just do not deserve it like other Mothers. 

  This day will go and I will be okay on Monday.

  I have a 8lb eye of round roast to get in the oven sometime soon. She is a beautiful beast that i bought around Christmas for a really good price. I saved it. Today is her day. She will make me happy. I have not had a roast beef in forever. I have made pot roast but not a roast beef. My Dad made nice ones. That is a good food memory. I hope I do the roast it`s justice. It will be very garlicy.


Off to do my list. Have a great day!

Happy Mother`s Day 2013

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Happy Mother`s Day to all the moms out there!! 

If you want to stay warm and fuzzy from your high of being loved by your kin..do not read further. It will burst your bubble and I do not want to do that. I am just venting because I do not have anyone else to vent to. (yes, hubs but he has heard enough) So I vent to myself on here. It is cathartic really. Some may say pathetic but fuck you to you, you narrow assed hick. <--nobody in particular. 

  I am guessing one of two things. 
Either someone told my children about my blog posts OR they really do not like me. Ever since MD, they have both been shunning me. Oh and if I ask them a question or statement, I get short, curt answers that hurt my feelings.
I am not going to ask. So the feeling of this weekend get to continue on. IF one of their friends told them, Thank you very much. Now I have no place to open up about my feelings that is free to me. I might as well just curl up into a fucking ball now cause I am such a bad parent.