Svelte is the way to be

Dovima

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   It will hard to be positive with this post. The only thing good I can say about my two endoscopies is that he didnt see anything that would make him think cancer. Which I am thankful for. I was told as per procedure, I have to wait for the card to come in the mail with my results. That will either be Friday-Monday. He wants to see me. He said to call after I get the card to make appointment so we can talk. Yup.
 The nurse that was attending me was reading the instructions and such and told me what his initial findings were. It said ulcerative esophagitis and colitis. I stopped her. Do you mean colitis as in inflammatory bowel diseases? She gave me a look and said to wait for the biopsy results. He took biospies from everywhere. If you have a IBD, the biopsy can tell them so.
  On top of everything else, I have either Crohn`s disease or Ulcerative Colitis. I am thinking it is the CD. I have what you would call Gastroduodenal Crohn`s..I am guessing from my symptoms.
I had a small introduction into it from the Gastro`s np. So I am not totally surprised and I am not freaking out. It is just another nail in my coffin. That is all. For some reason, the cosmo`s want me to suffer. There is not a part on my body that is not suffering. What am I supposed to do? Cry about it? I probably will later.
  But for now I am just going to live my life. And save up for a plastic surgeon cause as I lose weight, the skin will continue to sag. I will only look like Dovima with a body shaper to squish all the excess skin. My two besties were shocked at my appearance. You could read it on their faces. I have dropped some major stomach inches.

  We finally got some snow. Two big storms a week apart. It is a cold and wet wonderland out there. I did slide on my butt while brushing off the car. I ha a good laugh to myself. I was okay. There is going to be 1-2 inches falling every day for the next couple days. And then a major freeze. Ugh.
 Kid #1 turns 27 yrs old on Monday. I am going to make her a cheese cake with strawberry sauce. Her favorite. That is my gift to her. I didnt get a birthday gift this year from anyone so I will do my best to treat them as they have treated me. I will celebrate their day but I wont buy a gift.

 

Arent these gorg? I have to find a place to get river rocks either free or cheap. This has to be done for my house garden. Here is the link if you want to do it too. I could see those all over my raised beds outside. Oh yes, the raised beds are going to happen. That is one thing that is going to happen, the raised beds out front with a cute fence to keep people away, kinda sorta.  I want to be able to go out in my slippers to water and weed!

BRB D.O.G. wants out again...ugh.

I saw this on FB the other day. My Aunt made this once when her family came to visit mine when I was a kid. It is funny the things you remember. I posted it on her wall. She is in her 80s. She and her daughter (my cousin) were laughing. The grand daughter makes it all the time. She passed it down like I will pass down my bon bons.

I really need to find someone or someplace that can help me organize a big binder full of everything they will  need to know when I am not here. Passwords, banking, account numbers, how much things have to be paid and when, recipes. All of it. I have to do it for my own peace of mind.. Wow that got sad real quick...sorry about that.
I have dishes to do and they are screaming to get done. I hope you are having a delightful February so far.

Groundhog day is a-coming

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 Tomorrow is the big day. Will we see 6 more weeks of temps in the 40s?? We have had such a non winter this year. I am loving it. I am one of the primary shovelers in the house and I am just not in the mood. We could get slammed. It could happen! This whole week will be in the 40s-50s (almost 60 deg f today) so if it is gonna happen, it should be soon.

   My sort of resolution is working out pretty good so far. I decided since I almost died, I am gonna do what I want and say what I want. I am making myself be positive because nobody..especially me..wants to hear the downs all the time. Look. My physical life sucks ass. (more on that) and we all know it. Part of me thinks I dont have long on this Earth. So I am going to try to be happy, get my affairs in order, pay off outstanding debt, sell off my miniatures, teach the girls my secrets, and make a book for them so they will know everything. Insurance, bills, passwords...the whole shit show!  I am going to stop putting off stuff so I can be happy.

  Today I had a mammo. Just routine. I have to wait till my GP gets the results. Then he can schedule a ultrasound. My boobs are super dense even for my age. Cancer can hide in there so having the extra scan must be done. Then next Monday I will have my upper endo and colonoscopy. They gotta see what is going on with my whole gut. Lots of issues that I will share if they find anything. Like I said, trying to keep it positive. 

  I have two recipes that I wanted to share with you. One I have made this weekend and one I am making today.

The first is a pasta dish. It is called Chicken and Bacon Pasta with Spinach and Tomatoes in a Garlic cream sauce. That is a mouthful of a title! The only thing I changed was replaced the cut up tomatoes with a can of crushed. This recipe is a KEEPER! We all liked it and there were no leftovers.

The 2nd recipe is a rice dish. It is called Salsa Chicken Casserole. I am making this today. It looks oh so good. We usually do tacos on Monday so this is a good change. I am changing it a smidge. I took half a jar of salsa and a can of enchilada sauce and pureed it in the blender. That will replace the just salsa portion. And the chicken has been marinating in a dry rub of cumin, coriander, cayenne, paprika, chili powder, garlic powder, onion powder, salt, and crushed black pepper.. I think it should have more then just an afterthought off salt and pepper.
I will make corn bread to go with this. Sounds good, huh?

  I have been selling off all my full scale miniatures. I decided it was okay to do that this past Fall. I discussed it with my therapist. I started off small. I am now just going for it. I have a few really nice 1/2 scale kits that a dear friend gave me. Part of the money will be used to buy 1/2 scale furniture and fixtures for those houses. My house is just too small for the bigger houses of my childhood dreams. If I died tomorrow, the Hubs would have chucked all the minis in the trash. That is alot of money spent. So I am selling them and giving stuff away. Clear the decks of all things unwanted and unloved.

That is about it. I wish it was Spring so I could plant but it isnt. Two more months to go!

Was that a blizzard?

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We had blizzard warnings. We had coastal flood warnings. We had fools buying up all the french toast supplies. It was gonna be Snowapolis!! It was for many many many. Jersey shore was flooded. D.C., Maryland, and nyc got feet not inches.
Our little neck of the woods got 4 inches. I think it is cause I really prayed hard. I was not in the mood for full scale shoveling. We may get another storm on Thursday but we best not. It is the Man`s 50th birthday and we have plans.
 I am trying to eat some breakfast this morning. My gut has been ick the past few days so this morning I have 2 scrambled, microwave cup eggs, a 8oz cup of plain kefir, and a bottle of water. Yeah I just threw the eggs away. I will stick with the kefir this morning.  My gut is like an amusment park. Tons of fun until you puke. 
  First week of Feb will be fun. I get to have a routine mammo and a roto rooter. Upper endoscopy and a colonoscopy. Yummmm!
   * I am irritated because my period is late and I dont feel good in the gut and the house is a mess. Watch out. I might bitch!*
   I was told by the gut dr that I caught the C-Diff too easily so that could mean there is a underlying reason. She threw out Inflammatory Bowel Disease aka Crohns or Colitis but I dont shoot blood out my butt so I think that could be a no. I worry what the underlying reason could be. I am being good and not dwelling on that. I might also have a esophageal stritcher which will need to be tapered. I have been having issues with food getting stuck in my upper chest when I swallow. I had a small ulcer and esophageal irritation two years ago, so we shall see if that has gotten worse. She is concerned that I am not back to normal yet and I am still losing weight.
All I know is all of my clothes are hanging on me. My favorite pants dont fit at all. I have not gone out yet to buy new sizes but if this weight loss is a trend, I will have to. 

  I am doing things to make me happy. I have been watching some shows on hulu and netflix. I have been making arm scarves. And I have been resting my body when I need. I have realized I have to do for me now. I dont know how much longer I have on this Earth. Could be decades, years, or months. I want to make the most of every moment. And if I am a skinny bitch in the process, so be it.

I hope you have a great week!

Got Polyp?

I am sorry!!
   I could have posted yesterday but I was way too busy sleeping and eating. Really. I came home and ate lunch and had a large coffee. Then I watched some tv and then went to sleep. I woke up three hours later. We went out to the 24 hour diner and we both had breakfast. All I did all day was drink. Water, soda, what have you. I am sore today but okay. The side of my neck hurts (that happened last time I had a endoscopy), and my stomach hurts. It hurts from the cutting that was done in there.
 They found three polyps in my colon and two polyps in my stomach. Yup.
 I saw the Dr before the procedure but not afterward. He had patients back to back doing exactly what he did to me so I understand. I have to wait one to two weeks for the biopsy results. I already know that I will be having colonoscopies and endoscopies in my future years. If they ever find more than one, you have to be closely monitored every two years. Oh Joy!

Oh! God! I didn't tell the worst part! The Suprep stuff you have to drink to clean out your colon is vile. It is the worst stuff I have ever ingested in my life. It is salty, sweet, hint of fruitiness, and back taste of  metallic. And you cannot just chug-a-lug it. I would have vomited if I did. It was bad and I bitched the whole time I drank it.The whole 16 oz of it.  Afterward, you have to drink 32 oz of water to dilute it as it is going down. Then ten hours later, you have to drink it again!! It works pretty quickly. I am not getting into specifics cause that is gross. But within the hour, shit started grumbling and moving.

  Anyway, I am still in pain right now so I cannot tell you if the removal of the polyps cured my stomach pains. Because I think the polyps were in the area on my right side that hurt all the time. I know that my back does not hurt anymore. But I am going to give it a few days to heal to really see. I hope it did the trick. When I got home, my right upper side hurt like a bitch, so pretty sure that is where he cut.
There is that problem of what are they going to tell me. Were the polyps together in my colon? Was there just a big one in that spot that was cutting off the area for food to move and for me to have pain? That is what is the scary part. The part that I am afraid of. I just want to think happy thoughts. They got the bastards and hopefully the pain I have been dealing with for 3 months is gone. Finito!
 As for the two stomach polyps...I do not know what to think. Hubs had one a couple years ago and it was fine. I am going to be honest. I am scared and I am not scared at the same time.
 I am just going to wait for the one to two weeks and hope all is well.

The little kid is gone on her trip and hubs works this weekend. Just me and the big kid. She is not feeling well so that means it is just me. I have no idea what I am going to eat for dinner or what i am going to do. I am supposed to take it easy today.  Nothing strenuous at all for the weekend they told me. I guess I can sleep, watch movies on Netflix, and making something yummy for dinner. I am in the major mood for Smoked sausage, rice and kidney beans.
Have a great weekend and Happy St Patrick`s Day!