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Dovima

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   It will hard to be positive with this post. The only thing good I can say about my two endoscopies is that he didnt see anything that would make him think cancer. Which I am thankful for. I was told as per procedure, I have to wait for the card to come in the mail with my results. That will either be Friday-Monday. He wants to see me. He said to call after I get the card to make appointment so we can talk. Yup.
 The nurse that was attending me was reading the instructions and such and told me what his initial findings were. It said ulcerative esophagitis and colitis. I stopped her. Do you mean colitis as in inflammatory bowel diseases? She gave me a look and said to wait for the biopsy results. He took biospies from everywhere. If you have a IBD, the biopsy can tell them so.
  On top of everything else, I have either Crohn`s disease or Ulcerative Colitis. I am thinking it is the CD. I have what you would call Gastroduodenal Crohn`s..I am guessing from my symptoms.
I had a small introduction into it from the Gastro`s np. So I am not totally surprised and I am not freaking out. It is just another nail in my coffin. That is all. For some reason, the cosmo`s want me to suffer. There is not a part on my body that is not suffering. What am I supposed to do? Cry about it? I probably will later.
  But for now I am just going to live my life. And save up for a plastic surgeon cause as I lose weight, the skin will continue to sag. I will only look like Dovima with a body shaper to squish all the excess skin. My two besties were shocked at my appearance. You could read it on their faces. I have dropped some major stomach inches.

  We finally got some snow. Two big storms a week apart. It is a cold and wet wonderland out there. I did slide on my butt while brushing off the car. I ha a good laugh to myself. I was okay. There is going to be 1-2 inches falling every day for the next couple days. And then a major freeze. Ugh.
 Kid #1 turns 27 yrs old on Monday. I am going to make her a cheese cake with strawberry sauce. Her favorite. That is my gift to her. I didnt get a birthday gift this year from anyone so I will do my best to treat them as they have treated me. I will celebrate their day but I wont buy a gift.

 

Arent these gorg? I have to find a place to get river rocks either free or cheap. This has to be done for my house garden. Here is the link if you want to do it too. I could see those all over my raised beds outside. Oh yes, the raised beds are going to happen. That is one thing that is going to happen, the raised beds out front with a cute fence to keep people away, kinda sorta.  I want to be able to go out in my slippers to water and weed!

BRB D.O.G. wants out again...ugh.

I saw this on FB the other day. My Aunt made this once when her family came to visit mine when I was a kid. It is funny the things you remember. I posted it on her wall. She is in her 80s. She and her daughter (my cousin) were laughing. The grand daughter makes it all the time. She passed it down like I will pass down my bon bons.

I really need to find someone or someplace that can help me organize a big binder full of everything they will  need to know when I am not here. Passwords, banking, account numbers, how much things have to be paid and when, recipes. All of it. I have to do it for my own peace of mind.. Wow that got sad real quick...sorry about that.
I have dishes to do and they are screaming to get done. I hope you are having a delightful February so far.

O! Xmas Tree! O! Xmas Tree

Something`s missing

  I have the box out in the living room with the lighted Xmas tree inside of it. I just haven't gotten to going over there to put it together. It is a big, bulky, awkward bastard. At least it isnt like the fake tree before. That one had each individual branch that you had to fan out and install on the base of the tree. There were like six different sizes of branch (i think six of each) and it was a bitch to put up and a bitch to put away. I should be thankful I do not have that one to decorate.
  So there is that empty space in front of the window. Waiting. I wish one of the kids took the initiative to do it. It is like passing the torch. You teach them the decorating tricks and when they are able, they run with it. That is what I did with my Mom`s tree when I got older. She didnt have to do it anymore.  Nope. Not in my house. Shit is still laying around waiting for me to put it up and throw it at the tree. It is funny that the shortest person in the house does the tree. I have a step stool that I use to get ornaments up on the top. I noticed that they opened the box of candy canes already. Shits didnt even make it on the tree before getting eaten. :) I half promise, sort of that I will put up the Xmas tree today.
 

That is a big assed box of candy! I had to buy it. Natalie co-signed on the purchase. It is originally $30 but we bought it for $15. It is in the closet and will be opened for Christmas week. 2012 is the 100 year anniversary of Whitman`s Sampler and they made this 2lb box to commemorate. Fred laughed at me because we saw them the week before and he just KNEW that I could not resist to buy it. I had too! Whitman`s sampler is my go to candy since I was a wee child. I know I am a diabetic and am not supposed to eat this shit. I know! I know there are better chocolates out there in the world. I know! I also know that Whitman`s has not been the same since Russel Stover bought them out. They changed the sampler formula.
Bitch cant resist a big assed box of chocolates! There are four other people in this house that will help me polish it off. I will count my carbs and inject accordingly. I will not harm myself.
TWO FUCKING POUNDS!!!

Halloween is coming!

I have not really decorated because I have felt so shitty. Today I realized that Halloween is coming in 9 days and Natalie`s 19th birthday will be in 7 days. She wants an ice cream cake and I will make cupcakes for those of us that want CAKE. She is getting a tattoo for her birthday present. Great Mom, huh? Shit, I wish I was getting the damn tat.
 Today I decided I am going to do a bit of decorating outside. I have some stuff I can use. I have lights. I have decor. It could look nice and understated. We decided that we are going to buy a couple bags of candy that we all like plus 5 large candy bars. If all we get are two or three kids, they will get the big bars.
 So today I will try NOT to bend over too much. I want to clean the front of the house just in case we do get trick or treaters. Plus it is gorgeous outside!
I see my surgeon on November 9th in the morning so that I can ask as many questions as I can so that I am fully informed. I do not want to go in there completely blind. I have read plenty online about how this surgery is done but what if he is doing something radically different? I want to know!
 So another trip to New Haven. No bakery this time. I have had enough for awhile. That is a treat and I am ruining by going there every time we go to New Haven lately.

Okay, gonna go out there and cut some shit down. You have a great Monday. It is a nice one out there!