Feeling Halloweeny

  I am still feeling like shit but I am also starting to feel the Halloween spirit. We have two big pumpkins and two small ones. They are not gourds but just smaller in stature. I read that the weather this year was not good for pumpkins. They will be carved and have tea lights put in for the table on the front porch. I have to buy candy on Friday too. Kid #2 turns 22 next week too. She hasnt decided where she wants to go for her birthday dinner yet. It is a toss up between the casino and the new Texas Roadhouse. We shall see.

  My energy has been really bad lately. I am blaming it on the October slide of fibro. If it gets worse or lags on, I will tell the Dr. I have a busy week medically coming up. I see my neuro on Friday, biannual ultrasound of thyroid on Monday, and gyn on Tuesday. Trying to get it all in before the end of the year. I saw the sleep dr last week. All is great on that end. 
See..Kid #1 came over to have me fix her earring. Just needed a plier job.

   My mind wants to water all the houseplants, tidy up the front porch, dig hole and plant free hydrangea the neighbor gave me, and make jam. All those things wont happen. My legs have gotten weak lately and my energy levels suck ass. I will probably plant because I have a small window to do so. I will water the plants and tidy the porch..maybe. I just realized that I have to groom the dog too. she is in major need. Ugh.

So yeah, life is rolling along and I am trying very hard to roll with it all. I am still breathing and a smart ass so that is a plus.

Fall Cleaning sucks major

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ASS!

  Especially when you have to do it all by yourself. The cold bug has hit the house and everyone except for moi has been suffering. They have had plenty of days to get over it. I am stuck doing everything else by myself. It is like the ways of the damn world. You push a human out of your vag or have them cut out of your stomach, or you sign paperwork to declare them yours forever AND you get stuck picking up their shit for eternity.
  I have been in a funk the past few days. I thought I had a urinary tract infection. I took some cipro but it did not work. So the Dr sent me to have a culture done. Two day and a 24 hour one. Both showed no infection. But I am having issues that include pain and multiple trips to the loo. That is all I am saying on that.  Since there is not infection, than something is wrong. I see a urologist next week. Can`t a girl get a fucking break?
I binged
 I can say that the foods I binged on were all low fat, or sugar free, and healthy. I just over did it. For two days. I feel like a fucking whale. (yeah yeah. I can hear you two bitches saying I am a whale anyhow. Fuck you deuces). I am happy to say that I am back on track today. Breakfast shake, salad and tuna, and I am gonna have salad and tilapia for dinner. Thursdays are not a gym day so I did stuff around the house. It is time to start cleaning up for shutting up the house for winter. Plus we are going to start painting walls very soon. In the next week or two. So I want to get shit done.

  I am tired. I am sick. And I am mad up to ^^ here with getting no help. See the running theme of this blog? One of the subjects is how I have a houseful of adults but none of them do anything to keep said house clean. Wash some damn dishes. Pick up the living room. Clean the bathroom that you turn into a swamp to two days flat. ANYTHING WOULD BE APPRECIATED!
Nope. Cannot be done. Must watch Hulu and Netflix instead. Must be on the computer. Must be on the phone.
  I have seriously gotten to the end of my tether. I realize I do need to find a new therapist. It has been almost six months and I have had no anchor to talk to about shit. Mine was laid off so I must find another place to go. Will work on finding one this week/next week.
 That is about all I have to say today. I am just tired of cleaning for others when it does not stay clean and I am in pain.

And I miss Oreos.... :(

Summer Summer Summertime

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   It is finally summer. It is starting to heat up a bit but not heatwave territory. As long as I do not have to turn on the AC THAT much, I am good. Yesterday I finally planted all the cherry tomato plants in pots. I also bought an heirloom tomato and I dug up another heirloom tomato that was not doing well in the ground. This is why I want the raised beds. I can control the food of the soil without breaking my back or the bank. There were a bunch of plants at the community garden up for the taking and the majority of them were sad and close to death. I took one thyme plant that did not look like it was about to kick it. It is on the front porch in a smaller clay pot. I hope it does well like the basil is. Pretty soon my ass will be sweating from canning jams and jellies. I am definitely going to do a peach pineapple and another one I want to try is a pineapple habanero jam. Not super hot but a little hotter than the strawberry jalapeno.
  We have been doing extensive cleaning around here. Like wiping down baseboards and window sills. Lemon scented cleaning. I love it! I am tired of the hiding places of my home being dirty. Time to peel back the layers, suck up the dust bunnies, and wipe it down clean. Now that hubby has been sleeping better, he has more energy. I on the other hand feel like dog shit. Very tired all the time. But that is my life now. I think the summer heat saps me. I would love to go traipsing off to a yard sale binge or picking strawberries or being out in the middle of the state getting some food and just exploring in the Jeep. We have not done that since we got our cat MonsterFace (who has passed). That has to be almost 10 years. There is nothing nicer than a long drive out into the country. You know where you are but you really dont. . That is what I miss. I think I will try to capture some of that this summer. Go drive a half an hour out just to have ice cream and sunflowers. Drive an hour to get locally brewed Birch beer from the birch trees in their backyard.
Yeah..those plans are going to be made.

As for today..My plan is to finish cleaning the kitchen and  making a nice big dinner. We are going to have BBQ ribs, corn on the cob and tater tots. The tots are my compromise because I would rather have potato salad. One day I will get my wish! LOL

Tired is as tired does

This is me..working her ass off to keep it clean

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    I have been doing so much lately around here that I am must plain tired. Spring cleaning and organizing can get a girl the case of the Zzzzz`s. After I am done here, I may or may not take a nap. That is up for consideration.

 What to talk about?? Hmm

   I have finally decided on the color theme for the living room. The walls are going to be gray but I have not decided on the shade. I also want white trim, accents of black and a turquoise blue. I am going to go to Lowe`s and pick up some of those sample paints and try to decide what to do.
 I am going to take all the pictures down off the walls. I want to change up a couple of the posters. I love reproductions of French advertising. I want the tealy turquoise look in there somehow. I do not know. I will figure it out. LOL I want new shades on the windows and accent drapes in black. There will be new flooring, new to us living room furniture, and a nice round rug in there. We are going to donate all the furniture in the house that we do not want to a charity that will come and pick it up. But first I need to start with the paint!  The kitchen will be blue but I have not figured out the other colors, so I am going to stick with my ideas with the livingroom for now. 

  I found a old handbag at salvation army yesterday. It is a small black purse with gold snap and small handle, with a bakelite accent and it is lined with the name Paray. From what I can gather online, that is an old name from the 40s. I paid $2.99 for it. I need a smaller wallet though. That is on my radar. My wallet clasp wont stay closed so this will give me a reason to buy a smaller bag. I love old bags like what my Mother would have used. Pretty snazzy!

  Okay, yeah. My ass is tired. I am going to go lay down on the couch and watch some tv. Hopefully that will revive  me. I do not want this to be a wasted Saturday.

Have a good weekend and hope all is well.

Veggies up the ying yang

Baby Eggplants/Farmer`s Market

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I can fit into my purple pants!!!!!!!!!!!! I have been waiting since June to fit into them. They are from Salvation army $3. Deep purple cotton pants with the ties at the bottom to make them shorter. Nice Spring/Summer pair. They fit! And not like a fucking sausage!!! Woot! There it is! Woot! There it is! Okay I am done now..
What do I do though? I had Popeyes chicken and a apple fritter for lunch/breakfast. I was running late this morning so I never got any breakie in. See how I am justifying the apple fritter?
  I went to the Farmer`s market this morning and picked up quite a few goodies. I have a full bag of tomatillos and some jalapenos (dammit! I forgot the cilantro!) to make the green salsa to can. I got a few of the eggplants in the picture. Some purple, some of those red ones, the small long lavender/white ones. I bought a nice stuffing squash, tomatoes, garlic, onions, some ginger gold apples, and a big berry pie. oh and some stuffing mushrooms.
 So I had a good errand day and I have to take Natalie in a bit to get her eyebrows done. Mine will have to wait till next week. Do not always have it all the time.

Milo makes it impossible to type at computer

Right now at this very moment, Milo is standing on the backrest of the computer chair and he is pulling my braid. Little fucker!

   My physical is on the 26th. I still have the lymph node poking out in all it`s glory. I still have the cough too. Everything is still the same. At least it has not gotten worse for me. I would not even know what to consider worse..sleeping a couple hours longer? Cause my ass can sleep. I have to be dragged out of the bed kicking and screaming cause I am so exhausted. And this exhausted is different then my usual tired. When you have Chronic Fatigue..you can really tell if it the same old shit or a whole new set of problems.  So I wait another weekend. That makes it 3 weeks that I have noticed the Node.
 I have a whole 7 days to wait and it might be nothing. Doesn't that suck? I mean it IS good that it nothing but to fret over it all week long ...well... three weeks long and just have him say..oh that is nothing.
Speaking of..My mustache tat on my finger is going to have to be touched up. It is peeling and flaking away and there are empty spots were black should be. NOT GOOD! It will have to be free and it will have to hurt like a motherfucker. But this is the best piece so far. People love it. I whipped it out at the bank. One teller saw and she started laughing. Then I just stood there like nothing. They all thought she was nuts.
Jam this weekend!