Coffee hurts so good

First off, I would like to say that I am 44 years old today. Happy Birthday to Me!

Secondly, I would like to confirm the title that yes, coffee does hurt my gut. I do not know if it is the coffee, the cream, or the combination. But my stomach felt good this morning when I woke up. I have not even finished my first cup and it is hurting in the front and in my back. Gallbladder for one!

  Last night Fred and I went out to celebrate my birthday and our 20th wedding anniversary which is on the 9th.  I decided I wanted to go early to dinner because I did not know how I was going to feel later on. Dinner did hurt me. I did not eat my entire meal but a good portion of it. I had a couple sips of Fred`s cocktail and I did have sour cream on my potato. Steak was probably not the best thing for  me but I only ate half so I did less damage. LOL
    The casino was fun too. We did not win big but we had some fun winning and we walked away with each of us having some fun money for later on. We stopped at the Asian bakery, Fay Da Bakery to pick up some goodies. I wanted to try a pork bun. Fred and I are going to share it at lunch today. Even though our night ended at 830pm (when we got home), We did have a good time. I realized something about this gallbladder business. Doing things like being up and walking around, does effect how you feel in your gut and it wraps around to your back. Last night I was really thirsty, it was warm in the place, and they have Dunkin Donuts in the casino. Fred and I both got a medium iced coffee. It tasted really good. Fred finished his. I barely got to the halfway point on mine. That is not normal for me not to drink it down.
    That right there told me that I have to watch what I eat and drink for the next week or so until I get this straightened out. I have some people tell me that once I have the surgery, I will be able to eat whatever I want. I have a couple others that I think are being a bit more honest with me. They say that losing your gallbladder changes you. You have to watch what you eat in terms off all the stuff that made you sick when your gallbladder was sick. Fats, creams, cheeses, beef, pork, coffee, caffeine, etc. A very good friend had hers out when she was in her 20s. She has to be careful to this day (20 years later) of what she eats. And she told me the first year is the worst because everything runs thru you. And they do not tell you that you can gain weight. Like I need to gain more fucking weight. I think the reason some people gain weight is because before surgery, they were suffering from malabsorption. They were eating whatever and they either lost or didn't gain. After the surgery, they continued but because their shit was fixed, the calories stuck around instead of ending up in the sewer.
 I sit here and eat a handful of grapes and hope they do not hurt me. Fred and I are doing a joint effort today. I am going to cut up two whole chickens (chicken wings are extinct, I tell ya!) and he will bake the pieces in his special rub. I am going to bake a butter pecan cake with chocolate frosting, three layers. And we are going to have a relaxing Sunday. My two darlings are still sleeping. I guess I will not be getting any birthday love or slavery from them today. Hmmm

Birthday Cake Hangover

Audrey makes me smile

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  I had a great day yesterday. It started off with me having a shitty day on Thursday. There was a fight with a group of friends, Lu had fallen down the stairs, and I got not so great news from the Dr. The good news is that I do not have any cancers that he could see. Everything looked good. No ulcers either. He said that I have a bit of irritation in my esophagus but it is normal range. So what the hell is wrong with me? He thinks I have a Stomach emptying disorder. One is called Gastroparesis and it can come from Diabetes. It kinda fits a bit. I am not happy about it at all. I am freaked out actually. He wants me to have an ultrasound, which is scheduled for this coming Tuesday really early in the morning. And they are mailing out bloodwork stuff for me to do. Then I will have to have an Upper GI series. I really do not know what that entails, but I will find out.
So as you can imagine, I was crying my eyes out by the time evening rushed around and the friend fight was going on. Oh, PLUS! Fuck! Natalie and I went to get my nose ring put back in. She lied to me. She told me it hardly hurts. Niki had to put a taper in to WIDEN to opening up to get the new earring in. FUCK! It felt just as bad as the first time.
 So yesterday was a really good day. We woke up and realized the Lu was fine. She did not break any bones and I think she was just screaming cause A. she bruised herself and B. she is a little drama queen. She went to the vet to get groomed and she looks wonderful with her dark purple tail feather. Then I went and got my hair did. Couple inches off the back, tapered in the front and bangs shaped up. I got a wash, dry and style and I was off and running. I got hit on by some young dude in the Dunkin Donuts drive thru. My ass did not realize it until I was driving away. I would have given his ass a bigger tip! LOL
 Fred and I went out to dinner, went and lost money at Foxwoods, and had birthday cake with the kids. It was a nice day all around.
Now I have a mountain of dishes in the kitchen. MOUNTAIN! There is all sorts of picking up to do and I did NOT grocery shop yesterday. So that is on tap in a bit. After I finish up here, I am going to slap on my....oh yeah!

Until January 11 at Lane Bryant, it is their Semi Annual Bra sale. Buy 2 get 2 free. Chelsea and I went and bought some. Even for Natalie too. So new bras for my birthday too? Cant get better then that!

That is all. Thank you all for your wonderful birthday wishes. I have never gotten that many Happy Birthdays EVER. Over 100. I felt like a real Queen yesterday. And I felt loved by all.
Okay..now my ass needs to get dressed and face the hoardes at Shoprite`s Can Can sale.

A Night out

photo by leon levinstein 1960

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 It was still hot out last night. Fred and I were hungry.  Where can you go out to eat at 1130pm? What is still open. Around here it is either the greasy spoon across the bridge or the casinos. We decided we were going to go to Foxwoods, eat, gamble tiny amount, and people watch. I stupidly put on FB that we were going. That meant Natalie and Raymond had to go too.
I have never ever seen that many women/girls/hookers dressed like that. I guess it is the new clubbing outfits. Skin tight sausage like dresses in varying dayglo colors and heels that I can say are 5 inchers but I bet some of them wore higher. I mean lots and lots of ho`ing going around.  Do these girls think they are going to find their *forever* man in that see of salivating testosterone?
 I guess I am an outdated relic. I met Fred when I was 17 and now I am 42. He is a keeper..I guess I am too.
 The kids had fun watching the drunken messes all over the place. Fred won the money back that paid for dinner of noodle bowls( and a little more) and we did not get into bed until 4am. I have not done 4am in like forever!
 I had 5 hours sleep because the cats wanted me to get the hell up. I will most definitely be taking a nap later on. I have my fresh brewed coffee to help me linger. I have chicken breasts to throw on the grill before the storms come later.
4am!

For Fucks sake..I never told you

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I came home from someplace Thursday evening and my neighbor across the street asked me if I would like free tickets to a concert at Foxwoods casino for Friday night. She had two vouchers (4 free tickets) and all I had to do was go to the box office to get them. It was a double bill of Yes and Styx. I told A. and she got really excited. She wanted to GO! I said yes..she gave me the two vouchers. Now, I was only allowed to redeem one voucher because those were the rules. So I got our 2 tickets Friday morning. I drove all the way out there and messed up my morning routine because we were gonna have a fun night!
Later on in the afternoon, it came to me about what to do with the other voucher. I stalked our mailman in our neighborhood (with Natalie) and asked him if he and his wife would like the voucher to redeem to get two tickets. He was beyond excited! They had seen the show was going to be coming and they wanted to go but they never bought the tickets. They love Styx. He had to finish his route, drive all the way home, change, drive all the way to casino and get tickets. I was worried he might not make it. But they did make it.
I am waiting to talk to him today about it. See how he liked it.

I am going to finish my scrambled eggs now and hope this dizziness goes away.....

Foxwoods Date Night

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We had fun. While walking through the casino to get to the restaurant, I stopped at a machine and I promptly won $50. That was dinner plus tip! I was already ahead of the game. That was the last time I won anything..ok I would hit like $1.00 here and there but that was it. Fred on the other hand walked away with a knot of cash. Fucker! Now I know what if feels like to be the loser of the couple. He is going to have play money but he is also going to pay the registration for both cars ($85 a piece).
  We had the BBQ Pork noodle bowls. They were extra big this time and we got small pots of spices to put in it.  LOVED IT! We didn't even talk when the food hit the table. All you heard was happy noodle slurping. I did take my insulin beforehand and I maintained a good sugar.
 We do not do the casino that much anymore because of the economy. We bring a small amount of fun money every 3-4 months. We eat and gamble. If we win, that is good. If we lose, we expected it. Back 10 years ago...I used the slot machines as a crutch because I was dealing with my illness and my mother`s illness and death. Over the years I find I can go with Fred, have a good time, and it does not pull me in. I have other outlets if I feel like life is closing me in. I used to go to GA too. Oooh! I am telling some truths. GA is Gambler`s Anonymous. I was really wrapped up in the slots. I did not lose our house but I made life miserable. Those days are gone...thank goodness.
 I have no idea what I am going to do today. It looks like rain. I wanted to get some flower for the porch baskets but I don't know. We will see....