Rainy December Morning

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     It snowed last night. Our first real snow of the season. Barely an inch but it totally counts as our first flakes. Of course it is raining because it is just too warm here on the shore. As long as I don't have to deal with the icy hill, I am good with any precipitation. I have my massive mug of BPC this morning. I have to decide what to do today amongst my Monday shit. I always have therapy in the a.m. That will be a hour from now. I have to wash the bed linens and there is a shit ton of dishes as per usual. I have to prep foods for the fridge. I make hard boiled eggs, cucumber salad, and cut up cheddar blocks for snacking. Okay..Just as I typed that, I went in the kitchen, started the eggs, and cut up the cheese. I will do the salad later. Those are like staples in our fridge.

   I wrapped all the gifts I have bought so far. It is going to be a intentionally lean Christmas. We are all adults and just cause they are our children doesn't mean they are supposed to get a shit ton of gifts like they are five. I am done. Done on so many levels. Four adults in the house need to ALL contribute in every facet of the household. So, Christmas will be very merry but it wont be abundant on purpose. We have a big ole ham in the deep freezer that I will thoroughly enjoy with lots of veggie sides. I will make a pie (s?) that will not be ketogenic. I think one will be apple and another sweet potato. That last one went fast!  I have three more gifts to buy. Hubs has to buy two more for them and he has to shop for me. I just remembered.......I had to water the tree. I checked it every couple of days and it had to be topped off this morning. Yeah, that is how my Mondays are.

  I see MY gastro this afternoon. We get to discuss my colitis. I do not want to take medication for it. I bet it will be a lifetime of fish and salad for me. I have to share. I have never eaten salmon before. I think the fact that you eat it partially raw always made me take a step back from it. But I know I have to overcome it. I have heard really good things about canned salmon. I think I will try that first before I try to cook it. Most recipes online are too carby. Most are for making fish cakes. I did find THIS RECIPE for Low carb salmon patties. I will have to spend an hour on Pinterest to find stuff. If I do, I will add it to my Keto-a-go-go pin page.  We shall see how that goes.

Okay....I just realized that I am still in my jammies and have to be to the therapist in half hour. I will post this, come back, and add more.

  I am back. It is 2pm. Kid #2 is sickkkkkkkk. She called out of work today and I have this soup cooking in the crockpot. I used real and less potatoes, added white beans too, and a smidge of ginger. I will not add the flour at the end.  I have all her work clothes going in the washer and I am taking a break. I saved two sausages for myself for my lunch. Yum! I will make a big tossed salad to make it a good dinner.

   My therapy session was eye opening and I cried a bunch. I learned about my bipolarness and how I perceive things. I was looking at a situation only on my side of the fence and on the other side. I feel much better about something that was really hurting my feelings. I am better with it all now. I am glad for the tears and the clarity. Sometimes it is good to have a mirror put up for you to see.

  I see the gut doctor in about 1 1/2 hours from now. I refuse meds and I will listen to what he says about changes in eating to heal me. Like I need more changes.  I am gonna end it here. I have dishes waiting for me before I go.
Hope you all have a good week. Stay warm! Make some soup!

Spoonie soup

Sucks is: When you have a bunch of ailments but you don't really know which one is making you feel like shit today.

   I need to call the gastro dr but I want to see if this too shall pass. So far, no bueno. I did take a 1/4 tab of the diamox and I don't feel dizzy anymore. The leaves are birthing and my allergies are in full force. Oh well. It is life.

  Every time I make a pot or crockpot of soup, I freeze some. I have a large sleeve of those plastic chinese soup containers with lids that a chef friend gave me. Usually a big crockpot of soup, stew, or chili will yield me dinner plus two-three of those containers. I write what it is on a post it, and tape it to the lid. In the deep freezer they go. Then when I feel like shit, I can heat up some soup. I take the lid off, defrost microwave for two rounds of 4 minutes each. Then it is easy to slide out of container into a little soup pot with a lid. It is the perfect Spoonie lunch or dinner.

   It was a Chicken Kale soup. Into the crockpot, I dumped 1 small chopped onion, 2 chopped carrots or a handful of chopped baby carrots, 3 cloves of peeled garlic whole, all the breast and thigh meat (chopped) from a rotisserie chicken, container of low sodium chicken broth, 2 low sodium chicken bouillon, 1 can of tomato paste, garlic powder, thyme, black pepper and salt to taste. I pour about 4 cups of water to cover. Then topped it with 3 cups of chopped kale. I cooked it on low for 4 hours. I added a cup of ditalini pasta to cook for 1 hour more.

 You could add more veggies if you like. Sometimes I will put corn or peas or cut up tomatoes. The kale makes to soup nice and murky.


  I made that about a month ago. I felt like crap today (still do) but I had something to eat! When I am feeling  good, I should do a bunch of soups at once and freeze them up.

  The phone comes by Fedex today. I think I will patiently wait outside while I do yard work.

Have a great Wednesday!

Well that sucketh

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   Some shit went down this past week. I was hospitalized for a infection that I acquired during my surgery. It is called C-Diff aka It`s a Shit Storm! It was bad. And that is not an exaggeration. I woke up Tuesday around 3am with a low grade fever and chills. I bounced back and forth between 99 and 100. I dont get fevers so that is unusual. Diarrhea ensued. I figured it was part of my healing and the stool softener I took cause the Oxy screwed me up in my gut. Oh no no. It was much worse then that. 
  Hubs took me to the ER at 4pm. Long story short...I had 102 fever, 135 tachy heart rate, and dangerously low blood pressure. They admitted me into isolation at 1am. I stayed until Thursday afternoon. I am on high dose antibiotics to kill the spores in my intestines with live culture probiotic to keep it that way. 
  That is the first time i ever felt like I might die. I didnt like it. The way the nurses and Doctors were acting, I count myself as lucky. C-diff kills. I am not elderly but I have a compromised immune system. I could have died. I am still thinking about that. I have decided that I am not going to let moss grow beneath my ass anymore. 
  The hubs is all over me which I like. He realizes that it could have been my final exit too. It is not time for that yet. We have to have some fun first.

  So, I am on a bland diet and I eat very little. It could be a month up to a year before my gut feels semi better. I have learned that I am probably lactose intolerant now. Vegan options in dairy forever. Oils and greasy are out. I had a few bites of a hamburger and learned my lesson. I can tolerate the kefir and soups. Bland is best said the foodie.  Christmas dinner will be interesting.

 That is how I like to end out the year. With a big bang!

I am going slow. Today the dog has a check up at the vet for her teets and I MAY make bon bons but that is not set in stone.

Christmas time is here

 I am not gonna be a big ole Bah Hum Bug this year. Or at least I will try my hardest. I want to be happy this season. Too much stuff has transpired over this past year that has made it really awful. I lost one of my oldest online friends and I am still partly upset about that. It will take time because I really dont know why. I have some ideas but that is all speculation. I had to lose another friend to blocking because she became a bigger asshole after the first friend dumped me. Surgery. Bad diagnosis. Sick dogs. Etc Etc Etc. It is ending with me most likely having to have a hysterectomy for the new year, two dogs are sick and on meds, and I think the starter might be going on the Jeep. Oh! This is a good one. We get the porch steps repaired and they tell us our porch is leaning. Doesnt need to be fixed right away but the whole thing will have to be replaced. Insurance doesnt cover that. Thousands of dollars. Sometimes I think I am being hexed. Why dont they just kill me and get it ovr with??

   Thanksgiving was good. Food was good. Company was good. I actually had a great time this year. I have been slowly cyber shopping for Christmas. After paying $400 on the vet this past week, I have to be careful. Plus what if I need a new starter! Oh yeah..I am bitching and I didnt want to do that.


I had a ultrasound on my uterus to see if they can see the Adenomyosis. I am pretty bad off with the pain. I dont say cause I have said enough this year about my body. But I have two options at this point..Wait out full blown yer all done Menopause or Hyster. This has been discussed before but it was back burnered. It really has to be dealt with because the pain can be unbearable. I just wonder how long is recovery. I will have to ask those hard questions. If it is done, it will be after the new year. 

That is about it for now. Pray that the jeep will start until I can get a mechanic to look at it. Ugh. We are down to one car at this point.