Easter is a-coming

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  I am eating my breakfast as I type this up. Still feeling under the weather from whatever that virus was the hit me but it doesn't stop my gut from being hungry. I have got a smidge more then a month until my appointment with my GP and I have lost no weight. I am going to pull out all the stops starting yesterday. Keto all the way. I am not going to starve myself to lose weight though. Do not worry. I should have been doing this all along and I am a dummy (i say that to myself). I deserve to be told that I have to raise the amount of insulin that I take. Doesn't mean I will follow Doctors advice but I deserve to be told. He is gonna yell at me for not taking the Crestor. He and I both know I cannot take a statin. It gives me bad side effects. But I have high cholesterol. Part of me knows I should eat vegan but we all know that isnt going to happen. I do not like deprivation. I do not care if it will give me more years. I deprive myself every day of yummy foods and I cannot see myself not eating meats, eggs, and cheeses.  You see how well I am doing with losing weight for a Doctor`s visit is going.  Yes, I said I will not follow the Doctor`s orders when he raises my insulin. I am not walking around with super high blood sugars and I have lost damn near 65lbs in the past thousand years. I am going to just try to stay the fuck away from carbs and sugar. Stay away demons!

Saw the boob surgeon

   I had to reschedule my appointment because of a snow storm but I saw her that Friday after. She told me that she wanted to call me on the phone and explain what was found but she felt it would be better with visuals. Just the fact that she wanted to call me made me feel better but also made me go..oh boy.  She showed me the MRI of both breasts. The mass on the right is bright white and you can see the irregular margins. She said it could be a whole bunch of things. She rattled them all off and I do not remember. I said *or it could be cancer. * She said Yes but if it is, it is very very small. Then the other side is a big mass of non mass, 3cmX3cm. It could be a whole bunch of things from the most benign to ductal carcinoma. I am sitting here waiting for the hospital to call to set up appointment for a Ultrasound with possible biopsies. If they cannot see the things in question on ultrasound, I will have to have another MRI done and they will do the biopsies then. I do not want any biopsies at all. None. I hate them. They hurt me so much. Yeah. That is what is going on with me right now. Wondering if I have ticking time bombs in my breasts.

Trying....

  I am just trying to get by day to day. Money is extremely tight right now. I am hoping that it will get better. I am hoping that if I do have cancer, it does not need chemotherapy. Because I have my hustle and if I cannot do the hustle, we will be in serious trouble. I am trying to just get stuff done. There is so much to get done and there is only just me to do it. Yes, I know there are three other adults in this house but you all know my story. I do not have to repeat it to you. The things facing me at the moment....Install new Firestick. Taxes. New batch of kombucha. laundry. Mount clothes in my room. Bagging leaves and branches. Washing pots outside. Vacuuming. Wash the stairs. The list goes on and on. Oh, and I have to call Insurance cause that is all screwed up. But that can only happen after I drop my adult child off to work. Seriously..

April 1st


  I need to take the ham out of the freezer on Thursday. I have to go grocery shopping for all the food stuff for Easter dinner. We will have a veggie feast like years past. I will make a pot of mashed potatoes but I will not indulge. I will be happy with my meat and veggies. They want me to make lemon cupcakes with lemon cream cheese frosting. I will do it and it will be so hard not to eat one. OMG so hard. I did buy candy for baskets because I dont know why. I am trying really hard to stop doing things for them because they are grown assed people but then nostalgia hits and they bitch that they want a basket. Idk.

Ugh. I do not feel good. Feeling queasy over here. I also realize I have change to roll. We save our change, roll it (cause it is free), take it to the bank, and put it in savings. I probably only have about $50 but that is better then nothing.
I am going to go now. I am still in my jammies over here and I have to pick myself up and get some stuff done. yuck.
Have a good week and I will be back next week with some updates.

The Tax Man Cometh

*22?* I really have no idea

  No Boob Cancer!

  I was so preoccupied with life that I plum forgot to post what I found out. I am forever sorry for that. I have a lesion. No cancer. Basically aging boobs. I had a friend PM me on Facebook to talk to me about it. She has had extensive reconstructive surgery from cancer surgeries on the breasts. I have a HUGE hematoma but I was told it will go away on it`s own. Not to worry about it and I will not. All is good. Phew!

   Monday I went to the Bureau of Rehabilitation. It has been a few months of waiting for this appointment. They are going to help me get back to work or try to get back to work. They can actually hunt down jobs for me. I decided that I want to try part time first and gradually see if I can add hours if a particular job allows. I want to work in an office with the ability to move around from seated to standing positions. I will be able to get job training, resume help, interview skills, and head hunters looking for jobs for me. I am actually a bit excited about it. It has been a long time since I worked but I think I am ready to try.

  Today I will do our taxes. I hate it. It is not super hard. I had no issues last year. It is just we do not get a refund so there is no fun in it. Do the taxes. Pay the bill. It is done. So I always wait to the last minute. This is where I wholeheartedly say I procrastinate. Since Kid #2 is working, this will be the last tax season we can claim her. At least I think it is. I know there is an income cut off where I cannot claim her anymore. I figured I would do it this time and then next year let her be her own adult person.

   I had to leave and run errands and take the Kid #2 to the dentist. It is like 5 hours later so I am here to finish this up. I learned something on my travels. I found out that I cannot ever take statins for my cholesterol issues. My issues are genetic, not food based. I have allergic reactions to two statins so that basically means I cannot take any of them anymore. My Endo is putting me on Zetia but that is a supplement to add to statins It is not going to help me. So I asked the pharmacist what to do. He said becoming plant based. You eat vegan and your cholesterol numbers fall right into line. How sad does that sound for me? Plant based (no meat, fish, eggs, or dairy), no grains or wheat, no rice, and no higher carbohydrate foods. I am smart. I know I could eat fake meats to supplement my meals. Most are soy based which is not the greatest. I could eat beans which are higher carb but I have to eat something. I am going to give it time. I bought some Morning Star fake meat crumbles. Tonight is taco salad night. I am going to use that as my meat. I am not going to use cheese or sour cream either. Stripped down taco salad with fake meat and no corn chips. Yup. Is it gonna come down to me eating flavored cardboard for meals? Seriously!

  I was supposed to do our taxes today. That aint gonna happen. I got home at 5pm and dinner has to get started. I will do it tomorrow. I promise. I swear! I have a bath bomb that is calling my name too. I want to soak my sore muscles and shit.

Okay...let me get off this thing. Let me cook my plant based meat and see how it tastes. You all have a wonderful Passover and Easter. If I do not post on Sunday, I will see you on Monday. Have a good night!

Oh Spring!

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  I am dealing with the return of hot flashes and fibro flare so I am not a happy or cognitive camper right now. I will try to be uber positive even though I feel shittay. We had pizza for dinner last night. I ate 3 pieces of mushroom from a small pizza, so not large slices. I am paying for it in many gut wrenching ways. But that is life, and I move on.

   Except for it being really cold, Spring is moving along nicely. I am going to wash all those pots and spray paint them. I was going to do it before Easter but we had that snow storm and lots of rain and wind. I have to catch a day with sunshine and no wind so I dont paint myself.

   This poor duck had lost all his paint and started to become waterlogged. I dried him out and spray painted him with Valspar gloss. I covered his eyes and spent a couple days doing it. He is now rain proof and a nice bright makeover for the quacker. I am trying repurpose what I have to save money. That is the plan anyway.

   I have been eating more veg since Monday. Easter was my last day of not following the cdiff rules eating. I have a fridge full of vegs and chicken. I will try my hardest to lose the 30lbs or at least 20 And to make my gut feel better. I have like a week of feeling great then I eat pizza and set myself back. I definitely have to stay away from grease and dairy.

  Lu is not doing well. Her heart meds were upped again. She has fluid around her heart.  She takes a diuretic and another pill. I wonder if she will survive this year. She is my love. I have never loved a animal as much as I love her. Because of her age, there is really nothing to fix it. I just love her and spoil her rotten while I still have her. She is 8 years old. We have had her for 6 years.

  Okay, I am done for now. I am cranky and I have a sink full of dishes waiting.
Have a great week!

Life is a trip

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  I am here. Just many things have been going on. Right now today I am dealing with having a brain MRI tonight. We are checking to see if I have a cerebral spinal fluid leak. Yup. We are back at that again. Three years ago I was at this same point. But it turned out to be my mastoid. This time it might actually be a leak from my sinus. I am taking a pill called Topomax for my head and neck pain. This is day four. It makes me feel loopy. That and feeling like garbage cause of my head and you can bet my ass spends alot of time in bed.
 I did try to be normal today. I raked some poopy leaves from under the bushes while the dogs were out. I am washing some clothes. I put all the scarves away for the season. I cleaned the livingroom, including dusting and vacuuming. We had the windows open too. Feels good.
It will be snowing later but I digress.
  This has what has been going on. I am a downer cause my life is suckage right now. I know that will change. Everything does. You will see my weight steadily drop as I post. That is if I continue to take this pill. My appetite is nil. Today I had a cup of coffee and a forced banana. It is 1pm. Everything tastes gross so there is no point. It is a plus for a diabetic.
eh. whatever.
I have been called out as a downer because I am not POSITIVE lately!  Maybe that is why I dont post. What is the point. I should just take a picture. Post it. Voila. There can only be positive from that.
Happy Easter to all of you that celebrate!

Easter 2014

Happy Easter from me to you!

*250*<---yeah,  I am okay with the 5lb gain for now. Stress eating

   I got a ham cooking in the oven Martha Stewart style. This is her Pork show on Martha Stewart cooking school. Of course they do not show the whole show. But if you can find it, she shows the whole way that she cooks a ham from start to finish. I am going to glaze my ham with the ruby red grapefruit jam that I have made. A suggestion from a friend. The ham has been cooking for almost two hours. After that, it will cool. I will score it, dot it with cloves, and glaze it. That will cook for about an hour. I have potato salad done. I have to make mac and cheese, deviled eggs, garlic green beans, roasted asparagus, and rolls.  I made cupcakes for dessert.

 I started this on Sunday but got distracted with the cooking and eating. So here I am, two days later to finish this bitch. It is more Spring like here in CT and all the bulbs are coming up. It is good. I put almost all the houseplants out. I have a Mother in Laws tongue that has to be repotted so that one will stay inside for now. Someone gave it to me in a sad state two years ago. It has over grown the pot and wants to be a floor plant now. I also have a couple rooted cuttings (spider plant and philodendron) that have to be potted also. One thing at a time.

 I did see that new neurologist last week. I liked him and his office. I have good news and bad news. I have been quietly dealing with electric shock feelings in my hands and sometimes my feet. I have been fumbled fingered and I drop shit on a regular basis. I will have numbness and tingling of feet and hands while awake or in bed. It does not happen every day though. I was thinking that I finally had Diabetic neuropathy. They did a  nerve conductive study on my arms and legs. He came back to tell me that my nerves are perfect. There is nothing wrong with them and that they are like the nerves of a non diabetic. This is excellent news. Very very good. Then he says the same thing my GP said...I think it is your neck. They wanted to do a MRI right there in the office but because of my insurance, I have to wait to do it in the hospital. That is for next Tuesday. My neck. It could be so many things. I do not want to speculate. So yeah....what the fuck is wrong with me? Why do I keep getting these catastrophic ailments?
 I have been taking Advil. It actually seems to help with the pain at the base of my neck and head. Plus I do not have any tingling so maybe it has to do with inflammation of some sort. I will let you know. All I know is if I can avoid surgery, I will.

 Hubs started working first shift today. I am making a special dinner for it. It came out of Eating Well Mag (freebie), May/June issue. And it is a quick chicken braciole. I have a sauce going on the stove now. I will substitute using bacon instead of proscuitto and spinach instead of swiss chard. I have penne pasta to make with it. Hopefully there will be enough left over to take to work tomorrow.

That is about it. I am taking it easy but trying not to completely slow down.

Easter Sunday 2013

 *263*<---did it today instead of tomorrow

Good Afternoon and Happy Easter!

  Hubs and I woke up at around 11am this morning. So we are NOT having a nice dinner at noon. More like later in the afternoon supper. I just did not want to get out of bed this morning. I figured out that even eating a handful of M&Ms would ruin me for the rest of the night sleeping. So I am sad to say that chocolate has to be out of my life unless it is really important. I was guilted into buying the Easter baskets this year. I did not buy anything. Then there was an argument, pleads of chocolate, THIS WILL BE THE LAST YEAR!!..So on Good Friday I bought two small baskets, filled them with candy, 99c spring colored nail polish, and shoved them in their rooms in the middle of the night this morning.

This is our ham. Aint she a beaut? She is waiting for her dress.
I found out just now that someone used the brown sugar and did not put it in a ziploc bag afterward. Hard useless block. Fred could not find any black pepper corns. Fortunately, the grocery store is open till 2pm today. He is off to get those two ingredients. So I am in limbo at this point and thought I would do my blog post. We are having this ham and a six lb turkey breast. I wanted my damn turkey dinner and I was not going to be stopped. Then these three complained that they did not like turkey, what were they going to eat. You know, they take my ass for granted, I know they do and I am an all day sucker. On Friday..oh all days, I bought this ham for $11. Not a bad price.
And I finally pinned down what we are having for our dinner today. Ham and Turkey Breast, small casserole of baked mac and cheese, small casserole of sausage stuffing, garlic mashed potatoes, small container of potato salad (goes with the ham), asparagus, roasted brussel sprouts, brown gravy, and a pugliese loaf of artisan bread. It is much food for all of us but we are making small dishes and we will all eat it for the next couple days. I will enjoy turkey sandwiches and then I will make a nice soup with the leftover ham.
 The dogs are barking. Must mean the man is back with my sugar.

That means I need to go for now. All is well. Spring has finally sprung! The crocuses are in bloom all over the place. I am feeling the way that I am feeling but I am good. Going to start walking on Monday or Tuesday. I think I will be doing it alone but that is okay. Some people dont want to walk with short people. LOL
I hope you are having a great Sunday whether you are celebrating the holiday or it is just too damn gorgeous out to stay inside.
Peace!

Joyful, I am!

*264*<------Yes. I am back at it again.

   I am sorry. It has been a few days. I have been otherwise occupied. But here I am and I will make it a big post.
    I am going to post my weight again because I am back at this mess of losing weight again. I will weigh in every Monday. I had said to everyone that would listen that if I did not have cancer, I was done fucking around. Now is the time to work on this body. I have lost some inches from not being able to eat so I should continue the trend. I want to say this once (unless at another time it becomes resolved) that I am still in pain in my right side like it is my gallbladder. All the time. Every hour of every day. Hurts worse when I eat fats of any kind. My constipation has gotten better since I started drinking the protein drinks. I am not going to take the pill that was prescribed for my constipation. I do not want another prescription. I can drink Milk of Magnesia instead. I am saying this because even though I wont mention it again, you will know it is an ongoing saga of my gut. I am going to tell my GP in April about what my next steps should be since my GP must be the idiot of the group. He actually told me that my pain was probably skeletal or muscular. He wanted to get me off the phone basically. Douche Nozzle. I will try someone else.
  So I started drinking a chocolate whey protein shake every day for breakfast. I drink 16 oz of it with either soy or rice milk. Those are less fattening. Whey protein shakes can be used for weight gain as in for weight lifters or for weight loss as in fatties like me. Oh! I had to put a pair of jeans away!! They are too big for me to wear anymore. Woot! Anyway. The drinking of this everyday is two fold. It will help me lose weight, and my first meal of the day is liquid. It does not hurt me and it has my bowels starting to move better than before. I am going to start walking but I have a ton of yard work to do first. I was raking this morning when I was out with the dogs. Nice yard work weather. Not too warm, not too cold. Just right. After I drop the big kid off at work, I am going to get a couple beds raked. Our town is not picking up leaf bags anymore so i will throw them up in the top yard to decompose.
  I am very happy today. Rainbow has decided to move back here. He is uber unhappy where he is. He was so indecisive about coming to live with us because of the space issue. When I told him that Big kid was moving to California in the Fall, that totally decided for him. He can have her room or the kids can switch, whatever. He will be here in three weeks. In the mean time, I am going to buy one of the Serta roll away beds. Not the crappy ones. One of the nice ones. I used to have to sleep on one at one point in my childhood, so I know they can be comfortable. Short story...both my brother and sister had to come back home to live for a bit because of lost jobs. I had to sleep on a roll away bed because there was not enough room at the time. I think I slept on that bed for a year. It wasn't bad and it was not a bad memory for me at all.  So he will live in the living room until September and then he will get a room upstairs. He will work and save his money so that he can go out on his own. He is kind of kick starting the other kid into working too. So I am Joyful! All my kids are growing and moving on..kinda sorta.
 Easter is in a few days. I have a turkey breast for the protein. The girls are pissed. Makes me think I should go out an buy a small ham too. Make some potato salad and shrimp salad. I do not know.



    Yeah, I am going to work on the losing weight thing again. My food intake is limited because of whatever is wrong with my gut. I just need to lay off any junk food now. Because it is bad for me and it is making my sugars bad. I cannot eat candy, cookies, chips, or any of that good stuff because of my diabetes but also because of my delayed digestion thing. The food sits in there too long and I am fighting blood sugars that I shouldn't have to fight. Meaning, I put in my insulin. It should lower my blood sugar. But it doesn't. Because the Lay`s potato chips are sitting in my colon and consistently raising the sugars again. Boring!! I know....

That is it. That is all that is going on. I have yard work to do and I have spring cleaning to do and I have to start tossing shit that I do not need anymore. Books need to be packed in totes. All this clutter drives me a little bat shit. I love my oldest child to pieces but I cannot wait for her to go. She is the major clutter bug/messy marvin in this house. It will be a relief to not have to pick up after another person every single day.

I will be back on or before Easter probably freaking out over what is for dinner.
Have a nice day!

Last Day of Winter

 

After a dreary morning, a bit of snow, and a ton of rain...the sun has finally come out. Love the sun! The last day of Winter would be a fucking bitch, right? I want to start working in the yard without having to wear a winter coat and gloves. Ahh! The sun. :)

  I bought a small turkey breast for Easter. I want turkey dinner and we had decided no more hams after the one we had for Christmas. It is a small turkey though. Very small. I remember being able to get a 10-12 lb breast for like Thanksgiving. The largest I could find was a little over 6lbs and the biggest they were offering was 7lb. Oh well. I will make sure to hoard some leftover slices for myself to have turkey sandwich afterward. I have decided there is going to be garlic mashed potatoes, asparagus, broccoli, sausage stuffing and I think make that shrimp salad that I make with the orzo. Fred and I love that and we eat it for days afterward. I could make a nice vanilla cake and get some ice cream to eat with it.
Oh and deviled eggs for sure!
 This is the first year that I am not making Easter baskets. These girls are 24 and 19. I think I deserve a break from the baskets until I get some grand kids. I do not feel the least bit guilty. I think because I have so much on my mind that I need to just let some shit go. I wish I could let the fucking bills go too. Ha!

  I finally made the Blood Orange Marmalade. I kept working on the oranges every weekend and then freezing the pulp and the skins. I had to add two regular oranges to get the amount that I needed to can them. It is a really beautiful color. I was able to get 10 of these half pints. I am treating them like actual gold. You have to be special as hell to get one of these babies! Thought I would let you all know that I eventually did finish them. I just did not have the energy or the want to do it but I had to. I was not going to waste all that money spent on citrus fruit go to waste because the fruit went bad.
Now I have a nice spread for toast.

I am a bit bloated this afternoon. Natalie made burger sliders for lunch. I am waiting for digestion to begin.
It better hurry up cause I have Thai Green Curry chicken to make for dinner.

Happy Easter!

*267*

Happy Easter! Or if you do not celebrate Easter. .Hope you are having a wonderful Sunday.

I just got out of bed about half hour ago and put the ham in. It is already cooked. I just have to heat through. So that will be about an hour or so. It is a 17 lb beast. I got the biggest free one I could find. Our local grocery store has a thing in November and in March. If you spend $300 in the allotted time, you can have a free turkey (whole, or breast), ham (shank), chicken,Tofurkey, or Stoffers lasagna. I know there is more to it but I either get the biggest turkey breast or the biggest ham I can find in the offer. So for that amount of time, I do all my grocery shopping there. I have been there more lately anyway because they have the better deals and I can get more food for my buck.

 I did Easter baskets for those three children. I was shaking my head the whole time but I did it anyway. I put my foot down though. I did not sneak into their rooms like the Easter bunny to deposit their goodies. I left them in my room for them to get themselves. Are you laughing at me? The older Mom that buys her adult kids Easter baskets?
I think I need some grand kids. These two need to hurry up, get their own places, significant others, better jobs, and start procreating so I have someone to dye eggs with! That isn't too much to ask. Is it?

I promised I would show my pansies. I had to bring them inside because we got a cold snap. So this purple one looks a bit worse for wear. They will be fine. I spruced them up with some spring water and once it gets warmer, they will be good as new.

This is the color I picked out. I love a nice pale blue/purple flower. In fact all my flowers in the yard (minus the tulips) are either purple or yellow. I did not do that intentionally. That is just how it happened. I even have a blueberry bush in the yard now..more purpley blue! Once they are in their pots and glorious, I will take better pictures. I wanted to show that indeed, it is too cold to plant yet here in CT.





I wanted to say that my tattoos are healing nicely. It looks like that the finger moustache is a success this time around. It will still be faded, which I knew, but it is intact this time. A portion of it peeled off yesterday and there is no stank looking hole in the middle of the stache. I will be able to wear it proudly to all that ask for some whisker!
 Fred works again today. I am not complaining cause the extra money is good. I just miss him when he is gone on holidays. He will get to eat because I will make a plate for him. He declared last night at 11pm to be Easter and cut into the cake. We do not have any company coming, just us five. So it was no biggie to me. Go for it! I took a bite and it was good.

So I think I am going to spend the day doing I do not know what. It is nippy out but I might get some of the last of the raking done. There is not alot to do. Then I can sit back and watch my garden grow. I have to drag Fred with me one day to get some more of those wood pallets so that I can start the veggies at the house.

That I guess is all for today. I have an appointment this week with the Gyno for a pre-op appointment. Find out if I have been accepted to get it. I assume so but you never know with insurance.
Have a good day all! Do not eat too many eggs or chocolate!

Good Friday 2012

*267*
It is a beautiful day but kind of cold here in old CT. I am going to do some cleaning up downstairs. I am hopeful that I can get many things done this weekend. I have this mask project I would like to finish before Easter but it is okay if I do not. They are just some masks that I want to make for the kids to bring my creativity back. I need to go to AC Moore in a bit and get some feathers and bling.  I have the lavender jelly waiting in the wings, and I have to cook for this weekend. I am going to do just the ham with the trimmings. No lasagna this time around. I have all the ingredients so I can do it another day. No biggie. Chelsea is trying to be gluten free and dairy free because of her health and skin (it is working) so I am going to try to make her something yummy to go with the ham.

  We were going to have fish for dinner today. I had tilapia saved in the fridge but we got bored with our meals and I cooked the fish on Tuesday. So I think I will try very hard not to eat meat but that might happen anyway. Fish two times in a few days is just too much for me.
This is a rather boring post cause I am just gonna la di da through the day today. Let`s see. I bought Purple and blue pansies for the pots out front. I had to bring them in last night cause of a freeze. I have to buy soil for them anyway.
I am defrosting the ham which I will score, pierce with cloves, and cover in wet brown sugar. Potato salad will be made tomorrow as well as the deviled eggs. I want a bake a vanilla cake with butter cream frosting also. I am going to make brussel sprouts, and a salad. The kids want garlic mashed potatoes to go with the ham. And then whatever dish Chelsea wants to make to go with. It will be a good Easter dinner. I will clean off this table so we can all sit down.

I think that is it. Oh! I bought my train tickets yesterday for my trip to Jersey/Philly. So I am going on a trip next month most definitely!

Be Gone MaryMary!

I need to get baskets filled for my *kids*

*270* <----yes, I gained some weight! Grrr!

 I had my V whisperer appointment today with Dr. M. He gave me some good news. That big old cyst is gone. In fact, all the cysts that I had were gone. Yay! Breathing a sigh of ever loving relief there. But I still have the pain. And my periods are all over the map. Right now, I am 4 days late. He says I probably never ovulated even though I had pain. So I am going to have the ablation done. Wednesday after Easter, April 18th. Update!!! My Pre-op is the Wednesday after Easter. Surgery is the following week on April 18th. So yeah, I need some more cold  medicine STAT!
 I had joked before that Fred wanted me to cook a ham, lasagna and all the trimmings and that there was NO WAY I would cook that much. Looks like it is a plan I will be down for the count on Wednesday, and maybe Thursday  I do not know how painful the internals will be and for how long. We will discuss all that on my pre-op appointment the week before.
So a 92% chance of no more periods ever. That does include the small instances of some spotting every 3 or 4 months.
I am actually excited about this. I hate my period. It has been heavy and hateful my entire life since the age of 11. I have ruined numerous outfits and it needs to be gone. But I still get to keep my hormones until menopause.
Oh. He told me that heredity plays a part in when you will go thru menopause. My mother had me at 46 so she probably went through change at 51 or so. He also said that smoking is a factor. It can take 7 years off your reproductive years. But since I quit, I should be okay as each year passes.

So that is all I know so far. No more cysts means no exploratory surgery or removing of ovaries at this time. Ablation will stop my periods so that it will stop the thickening of my uterus AND the pain AND the monthly Nile river.
You can Google Ablation or here is a link to Novasure.

Plants and Ham and Diabetes and a busy day!

*281*

It has been a busy day so far so I figured I would regale  you with a list. Better than me blathering on for paragraph after paragraph.

7am: Bladder tells me it is time to get up. Back to bed for 40 more winks
10am: Fred is up getting dressed and I realized I have slept the morning away.
10:10am: Calling oil company to deliver 75 gallons of oil $300!!!! Because we are almost empty.
10:30: Online banking done, Electric bill check written.
10:45: Dressed and ready to go..I look like a frump and no coffee. Not a good start.
10:55 Dunkin Donuts!!
11:15am Bank...I totally glossed over the fact that today was payday because tomorrow is Good Friday. I feel a bit stupid but that is okay.
11:30: Post office for stamps so that I can mail electric bill. I usually do online sometimes.
11:45: Grocery store..did I forget to mention that Fred is with me and a constant source of entertainment.
12noon: The grocery store is busy. Ugh. I usually go at 8am on Friday when people are at work.
12:30: We decide to pick up Regular grinders for all of us for lunch since we did not have breakfast either. I hoovered it and not too proud.
12:45-1:25: Put groceries away, ate lunch, read newspaper online, checked Facebook
1:25: Drove Fred to work early for meeting.
1:40: Went to local plant place and picked up some annuals, bok choy, and red onions for the garden
2:00: Pharmacy for Vitamin E for neck scar, Easter candy, and stuff
2:20: Get home and called Dr office....

And basically that is where I wanted to stop the list. Remember when he took me off the Actos (diabetes pills) YAY! Well, it is not a good idea. No matter what I do, I cannot keep a steady sugar. If I put ONE HALF TEASPOON of sugar in my coffee...Spike! I basically cannot eat any carbs and that includes veggies. Which I cannot do. So he wants to see me next Wednesday about it. I have a fear that he is going to put me on insulin for meals. I do not want that! But what am I going to do if that is my only option.
  I planted my dianthus in the porch pots. I planted two large mounds of zucchini in the yard in two areas. And I planted these mystery veggie plant that Chelsea gave me this morning. I have some more annuals to plant but I might save those for tomorrow.
Ham is out of freezer and defrosting. I bought four bunches for collard greens that I have to clean. I am going to make my Easter bread tomorrow starting in the morning. I have to dye some of my eggs for the bread. They get dyed red. Something about Jesus and his blood..I think.

So that was my day. They are not usually that domestically exciting but it is a good day. I am in good spirits and health..regardless of what you all might think. I have a dollhouse to finish so badly. I wish I had more energy. I know it is the blood sugars. Once I get those under some good control, I can resume with all my plans. I just feel diabetes shitty on a daily. Those of you that have diabetes, know what I mean.

Okay, Waiting for Advil to kick in so that I can tackle the kitchen!

Valentine`s Day...What the hell do I do??

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I am trying to figure out what to do for Valentine`s Day. We always sort of celebrate it as a family because Chelsea `s birthday is actually the day after.  There was a place that actually made heart shaped pizzas when she was in elementary school.
Anyway... I usually buy a HUGE box of chocolates that go on the table for all of us to share. That would be our shared Valentine...fatness!  I do not want to do that anymore. I am losing inches and I want to keep that trend.
They are not going to want to eat Sugar Free chocolates..they are so good by the way.  I am just trying to figure it out. We do not do flowers because they grow in my yard in the Spring. That is much better to see after a long winter. I always give food for love. That is how I was taught. If you cook something wonderful, or give something yummy...you are showing that you love that person even more because you took the time to do it. I know there are alot of fat haters out there that think that people that use food as a extension of their love are sick individuals (i have read it..they are out there!) but I do not give a shit what they think. I honed my craft of cooking to share with my family. I didn't do it just because I felt like messing up my kitchen.
I dont know. Easter is going to be hard too. Gosh. I usuallymake a very large Easter bread for Easter Sunday Morning. HUGE! It is soooo good. Look it up and you will see what I am talking about. Things have to change and some of the best parts of my favorite times of the year revolve around food that I should not eat.
I will just brainstorm my ass off....Any suggestions are appreciated!