Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Living in ADHD Wonderland

*249* <---stress ate over the weekend

    Ruby, our three yr old puggle mix is on 500 mg of Cipro 2x a day for like 10 days. She has mastitis in her back nips. For three days I thought she might have breast cancer. I was a wreck! After spending a large amount for blood work, the vet said she is fine. The pills are slowly working. Every day is a bit better. I hide them in a piece of bread with peanut butter. She doesnt spit them out when I do that. i ate so many cookies. Too many to count. Pushing the veggies this week. LOL

  I have been learning through therapy that I live in a ADHD household. I probably have it also but I am high functioning. Some women just learn fast what works in their life to keep shit smooth. People like me are hard to diagnose as ADHD too. That being said, we know for a fact that two of them are most definitely from testing and the other has all the classic symptoms. That makes life for me extra fun!
 All the clutter. All the times they leave stuff laying around. The forgetfulness. I have to remind/nag to the point that I am a asshole. I have to basically do everything. I have been complaining for years but I finally know why this family is the way it IS. I read this article (20 things to remember if you love a person with ADD) the other day and it really opened my eyes to it more than before. It says ADD but both problems are basically the same. I was told by the therapist that it is very surprising that Hubs and I have been together for almost 30 years. People with ADD and ADHD as adults and unmedicated are hard to be around. I have learned to adapt. I have to learn that is okay to be his keeper cause I love him. But the girls need to stop forcing me to be their keepers. They have to go out on their own with their lives without me being their beacon.

  Yeah.. I am working on how  I let myself become a doormat over the years. Time to change that.  I also want to be ME again. We shall see how it goes.

  I fell under familial pressure and had the cable turned back on. Grrr! We lasted 3 months. THREE months! I was in heaven. They all started in on me about it when the new Fall shows started and Football.  I will be stressing the bills again but they get to watch unlimited commercials! WooHoo! *smirk* Oh..I had my 2nd ultrasound on my thyroid yesterday. I probably wont hear anything till Friday/Monday. I am not worrying about it. They are probably the same size as before. I will update if there is a change.

Gloomy and rainy day.  I have laundry going. I have to wash dishes (again). Roast a butternut squash for soup. Figure out what is for dinner. Fry bacon for BLTs for lunch. And water my plants. I ordered Kid #2`s bed this morning from Walmart. It will be here by her birthday next week. I am just doing. You all know how those days go..if there is anybody out there actually. Part of me thinks I am just talking to myself.
 Have a great Wednesday. American Horror Story!

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