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I wanted to let some of you know that you make me feel good. I just sit here at my Mac in the mornings (in my jammies and with coffee) just blabbing on and on about nothing. I do not know why I do this. I figured I would be writing for myself, so that I could look back at my progress. My own little computer diary. But I have found out from some of you that I actually inspire you.
Gives me tingles!
I think the fact that I am giving you the push to do something that you have been putting off has given ME the motivation to move forward also.
I will give you an example. A few months ago, I bought a sky blue sweater that was kinda snug. I had to have it and it was like $2 (salvation army) so it was no loss if I never fit into it. I do not like snugness in the big ole belly region. That is a lie. I will wear tighter shirts for sleeping in and hanging around the house. NO Tighties Outsidies for me.
I had my white capri pants on this morning and I accidentally grabbed that sweater out of my drawer. I said what the heck. IT FITS!! It has a little extra room too!! It felt great and I did not feel awkward in it either. You know when you wear something and you feel totally like you MUST take it off cause you just do not like the way it feels on you?
It used to do that..and now it doesn't.
All of you out there (those that follow and those that dont) are helping me every day.
Your cheerleading has helped me realized that I do not have to be a sloppy frump anymore. My days of sacrificing for my kids are over. I am buying clothes (sales, clearance, salvation army, and goodwill). I am wearing colors. I am wearing skirts, and earrings, and dressy jackets. I am getting my hair did and my toes done. I want to look and feel better about myself. I still have depression. I can still crumble into a blubbering idiot of tears if the right subject is brought up..but otherwise I am doing okay.
So as much as some of you say that I INSPIRE YOU...YOU INSPIRE ME!
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