What I would`nt give to have a block of ice to lick!

That looks like heaven.

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   It is a scorcher today and it is only 1030am. I took the d.o.g.s out. Fresh water for them with ice cubes. Fresh food. Meds for Ruby and Perl. I wet Lu in the sink (that will happen multiple times today). Gave a huge drink to all the plants on the front porch (gotta do the few in the house). I folded towels and started a load of wash. I took out the stink-a-poo garbage and brought the recycling out to the curb. I have to take my meds and force the liquids today. The pill that I take for my head  makes me heat intolerant. I have never noticed it until today. My eyes are not good either. We dont have a AC on 1st floor so I will suffer it out.

   First things first. We think Hubs may have rebroken his foot from going back to work. He sees the foot surgeon tomorrow morning. Later on he goes to have his deposition for his comp case. It is looking like it is in his favor. He was told he would do this and then he would have to see the comp dr at some point. I hope to the baby Jesus that I don't have to do it. I could end up having to do it. I don't think my brain could handle that.
   We need some positive thoughts and prayers going his way for this, his foot, and something else. It is for a very positive outcome and it will alleviate some of my stress about money. This has been a long year of torture trying to pay bills. Today is just as hard. I have to ask my kid to loan me cash to pay a bill. She should be giving us rent anyway but don't get me started on that. I have to ask her or said service will be shut off. If it is shut off, I will have to pay the back and current balance plus an added kick in the ass of $25. So I wont be able to pay all of that till the end of the month. She relies heavily on this service so let us hope she helps. Usually I am pretty good but when extras happen,  I get screwed.

This is why we have to pray for Hubs. He needs to get off his feet and back sitting on his bootay in a cubicle.  PRAY!!!

  On a positive note, we are having a bumper crop of tomatoes. The plants are huge and full of flowers. That means lots of tomatoes! I am happy cause the Farmer`s Market has gotten expensive. It used to be cheap. You could spend $10-15 and come away with a ton of produce. I went last week. Tomatoes were $3.50 a lb. Yeah! And not heirloom ones either.  It was ridiculous. I will have a ton of leeks also. I will make a large pot of potato leek soup, put them in Chinese soup containers, and freeze till for the Winter. Yum! I might try to dehydrate them also. That would be a great way to utilize them.

   I see my neurologist on Thursday. My friend is going with me. I have to see if I really do have IIH. I don't want a Lumbar Puncture. I really don't. They scare the shit out of me. It wouldn't happen then cause you have to plan for it and a anesthesiologist does it. I don't want to do it.

It is hot but I am sitting in front of the fan and it isn't that bad. As long as I dont move or blink, I am okay.

Cysts and Bills

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 I had a good appointment with the Gynecologist. He told me that the cysts are not too big. They are each 3cm big. The one of the right is a complex cyst and will not go away on it`s own. On Valentine`s day I have to go have a ultrasound and blood work done. If everything looks good, then it will just have to be monitored to see if it gets bigger or not. It is causing my pain. If the pain does not go away after awhile, I have the option of having the ovary removed. I am going to wait and see. He is concerned about my wayward periods, extra estrogen and something about thickening lining. I have to have a uterus biopsy too. Ugh!  So that is that with that. I will know more later on but he said for now, not to worry.

Bills are creepy up my ass. Now, I am complaining, not asking for a hand out. So please do not take it that way. I am griping.
The electric company USED to give you payment arrangements if you needed them. As long as you did not break the arrangement, you were fine if you ever needed another one. Every winter I would use it maybe once. I tried to do that yesterday because I have a bill over $400 that is due on the 20th. I sent them $300 two weeks ago. They told me no. The company looks at your ENTIRE history with them...ummm like 25 years, and if you ever were late or carried a balance, they would not allow you to have a payment arrangement. This is going to be a shock to many. Just like me. I just paid the car insurance bill, I have held the mortgage payment, and I have A HUGE bill due at the end of next month. I am thinking I am going to break at one point.
 Oh! Plus the shop had no cars to clean this week so Fred wont get paid. He never saved a dime of that money for the future. So that means, I have to give him some money this week out of the non-existent money I have. He will then talk about how he makes so much money and there should be some.
Yup, there is and they pay bills, scripts, medicine, Dr appointments, etc etc.

So I am not going grocery shopping this week and maybe next week. I will put gas the Jeep and car, buy cat and dog food, toilet paper, and get some hot dogs, macaroni, and some hamburger. We have plenty of food in this house. I can be creative. Natalie will starve but oh well.
Chelsea`s birthday is on the 15th. I have to get supplies for her cheese cake.
I am fucking stressing.
*Hey Gran! This does not mean I want you to be quick on our arrangement!! It stays the same!!*
Winter is always hard because it costs more. But I have been behind the 8 ball because the price of Dr appointments went up and I have had to go a few billion times.
Electricity is high. Cable is high. Food, gas, etc. It is stressing me the fuck out. I have not saved one penny for my trip to Colorado yet because something else falls into my lap.
What am I gonna do? I cannot work. That has already been established. The girls? Ahahahaha! Thats funny!
I am thinking I may have to start selling off my miniature collection. I have some pieces that could fetch a nice amount of money.
Oh well, maybe I will clean house this weekend and think about it. I need money.

I need to take some of these bulbs out of these light fixtures too.

This is for a certain someone that likes to stalk:
*Laugh away you special Snowflake! Karma will be coming for your ass one day soon!*