Is it cold enough for ya??

Ground Hog Day

*253* <----fucking menopause


  Let me start with how the spending fast is going. It really isn't. Savings this month $123. I guess I could say that is really good but it isn't. I bought some stuff that I knew I shouldn't. This past week I just didn't even think of abstaining. Starting fresh. I didn't spend at all today and I plan to really stick to it. I am more aware of what I spend. I also have the benefit now that oil and gas are cheaper so I will save from that. I was able to buy a little more then half a tank of oil (116) for $260. That is WAY cheaper then past years. I used to spend more on 50 gallons.  So January was a bust but I learning bust. I will save more for February. I will only spend on what is allowed. I can do THIS! Say it with me now!

I can do THIS!!

  Menopause sucks major major major. My period is late 18 days. Last month it was super late too. This is why the weight gain. Hubs and I didnt buy any ice cream or chips or crap this past week. I want to get back to where I was. He has a broken foot and he is afraid he will gain more cause he is less active. Hot flashes. Oh yeah. Mostly I wear a sweater instead of a coat cause I am always hot. It is frigid the past couple days so I did keep warm but this summer is gonna be bad. I better lose a shit ton so when I am walking around half naked cause of my hormones, nobody will be too grossed out. I just appreciate the good days of my new hormone imbalanced life. Lordy.


  The blizzard of 2015. Our little city got close to 30 inches of the white stuff. This is our street before the plows came. It was past my knees and I am 5`3. It took two days to dig out. Since he is wearing a

Blizzard 01/2015

Herman Munster boot, I had to rally the troops to help me with the snow. I had help. I was pleased. They know the proper way to shovel a BIG snow. We had a bit yesterday but it wasnt too bad. But Super Bowl Sunday night and all day Monday are a different story. 4-8 inches for the shoreline (us), 8-16 inches for the rest of the state. Ground Hog Day is in two days. I already know what the outcome will be. The Ground Hogs ass fur stuck to the bottom of his hidey hole and we will have a long winter!

  As some of you know, I love freebies, contests, and sweepstakes. I dont do them to freak proportions but I do it plenty. I have gotten some nice things over the past couple years. Snack foods, free coupons for stuff, zippo lighters, two ottomans (2 different contests), and little doo dads here and there. Lots of samples too. I never think I will win something big. Today was that day! I received a email from Bausch & Lombe that I was chosen as one of the weekly winners of their current contest. I won a 32 gig iPad mini! Can you believe that? I could never afford the expense to buy one for myself. I filled out all the paperwork and it will come in 6-8 weeks from now. Spring time. Perfect.  I decided hubs and I  would share it. Instead of using our phones in bed all the time. Goody! I am so happy. After all the crap that has gone on with us, it is good to have a bit o sunshine.

   One thing that was very bad was I lost was a very good friend. She unfriended me on Facebook/Life and it made me extremely sad. I worry about her health and unless my other friends tell me, I wont know how she is doing. I love her dearly and always will. I will never have hard feelings towards her because I couldnt. She is like my sister.

  I am cold sitting here. Brrrr. Frigid like whoa. It is 20 deg F at almost 6pm and that doesnt factor in the windchill. I will get off here, turn the chicken wings, and start the rice pilaf. I am making a big caesar salad too. Yummmmmm.


I hope you all have a great weekend. I will not spend!!

Summer lovin, happened so fast

*263*

   The weather people say that it is going to be a high of 86 but with the humidity it will feel like it is in in the mid 90s. It has been like that for the past couple days. The air is thick. The walls, floors and stairs are damp. Yuck! There is some relief coming. Thunderstorms tonight and dipping temps will give some relief. When it is like this outside, I stay inside as much as possible. I water my plants but that is about it. The grass could grow as high as a corn field. I do not care. I will always repeat...it is not the heat that I hate, it is the humidity. If you have never experienced real thick humidity in your life, count yourself as lucky. No matter how long you have been around it, you never get used to it. Today will be a day of inside stuff. I want to wash the stairs again to get the ick from the humidity off. And then clean downstairs. Too much of a hot box upstairs to do anything. That will have to wait till it cools off.
 I just posted this funny video on my Facebook. This woman is swearing about the damn heat we are having. Very funny woman. She is swearing and she has said that Moses needs to take over with deciding on the weather. This woman that I have not talked to in forever decides to get on my Facebook and talk about how the woman is gonna go to hell for using the Lord`s name in vain, etc etc etc. I deleted the post with her comment, re-posted it and said at the top, If you do not like swear words or seeing the God`s name used, DO NOT WATCH IT. This is your warning. Do you know that bitch asked me if I was going through menopause? I AM but she needs to just shut her mouth. I will delete her quick like damn bunny.
 
 Let me think of some positives for today.
  Hubby is feeling much better from the virus that he caught. It is some weird summer shit that is going around. His friend even had the same symptom of his knees and back hurting. Just weird. He was told it takes a couple weeks to shake it. But he is good. Despite the heat, the veggies in the gardens are doing quite well. We have an okra growing! I never grew okra before so this is a first for us. But she is growing. I should have taken a picture but it was so blazing hot yesterday. I just went and watered the beds and left. Did  not even harvest any kale, which was so huge. I let one of the other gardeners take some home yesterday.
  Even though the Jeep needs brakes badly now, they will be fixed on Monday and all will be good. I knew it was time for brakes but I had to pay taxes and reg on two cars. The brakes were fine until I drove half hour away to DMV and back last week. Now the front brakes have hardly any pad. So she sits until Monday when she can get fixed. The positive in all this is I have been able to save money to the point that I can pay unexpected and expected bills. I forked over a lot of cash this past week and I am happy that I could do it.
  Today we are going to cook some bbq pork, bbq chicken  and potato salad. If it cools off enough this evening, I will make mac and cheese. 
This week has been too humid for any exercise activity at all so I just took it easy and hope for some cooler air to come this coming week.
 I can say that I have gone to the beach once so far this season. The water was nice and cold too. Chelsea, Natalie, and I went. I am hoping we do that more often. Just floating in the cold ocean, cooling off, and having conversation. Great way to spend a summer afternoon.

Full Moon and Menopausal

*263*

  I am feeling that the full moon and menopause are my enemy today. I feel like scratching somebodies eyes out for no darn reason. Okay there are reasons but I should just be able to get over it. I think it is just a combination of things that are making me feel mean and hermity. If I had it MY way, I would order pizza for dinner and stay in bed watching Netflix all day.
 The pipes under the kitchen sink got clogged with grease by someone that is not ME. We unclogged it but have to replace a couple pieces so the sink is non functional until tomorrow. We had to replace the starter on the Nissan this past week. The charger is not working on the kid`s work computer and their non profit does not have it in the budget and she is whining at me. I have to pay car taxes. I need a hair cut and my eyebrows threaded...badly. I cannot even afford some Calgon to take me away!
 I did fill two paper garden bags with leaves from the front yard. My strawberries are looking good. I am going to transplant them in the Fall into their own circle garden bed. Just one of my ideas for around here. That was a little bit of exercise and mind wandering while I was out there. Keeps my mind off of real life shit.

I want to go shopping and not for groceries!!

  I wish I could go get my hair colored and cut by a professional. Not Cost Cutters. Mani and pedi too. Go to the mall and buy new shoes, new bag, and a new spring outfit. Come home, take a nap. Then get up and go out with Fred to dinner and casino or a movie.
I want to be able to financially do it and not feel a smidge guilty about it. Oh and I want four new bed pillows please!

A girl can dream....

On the road again.

Major typos in this but it is still good thinking

*265*

 I have lost another 3 lbs that I have not gained back. So I float in the 265 range up and down a pound or two. This is good but not good enough. I was told by my shrink that if i exercise and possibly meditate or do yoga, that it will help with my menopausal symptoms. I found a cool website called The Perimenopause Blog. It helped so much with understanding that some of the stuff that is bothering me is perfectly normal. Like the head itching. That is a symptom. She described what i was feeling to a T. I was getting ready to have Fred check my head for lice. That is how bad it itched. Nope. It is the menopause. I need to make an appointment with my dermatologist though. There is a special shampoo with steroids in it that will help make it better. Cause it is driving me insane! A small part of me wants to shave my head, grow my nails, and go to town with the scratching.

  Soooo, I am going to be more serious then I have ever been about trying to lose some weight. Because you gain weight with menopause and I cannot afford to gain anymore. One of my friends has gone back to the gym after a hiatus, I think I should just do it. Fuck my inhibitions. I have lost all the good that I did. I had better muscle control, my back muscles were good. I could walk longer distances. And I felt good. Then I got lazy.
My period is here but it is not that bad. So I plan on going to the gym tomorrow in the morning. It is not supposed to be as oppressive as it is today. One of my goals is to go to 255 by September 1st. That will probably not happen but it would be something nice if it did. Wouldnt that be nice? Another 10 lbs down. Baby steps. I want that goal of 210 to happen one day.

Good News! Fred got back his test and it came back negative.  They still do not know what is wrong so he will have to get a follow up visit. That was a big sigh of relief after waiting three weeks for the results. I do not want to lose him just yet. I have been trying to get him to go back to the gym also. One of  his Drs told him that it would be good for his migraine/dizziness if he got regular exercise. If anyone has any ideas on how I can get him to go, let me know.

Hot one today so I am not going to cook the country pork ribs that I bought yesterday. I do not like them in the crockpot. I usually cook them in the oven covered in foil then put them on the grill for char and sauce. Too fucking hot for the oven. I am already insane because I promised I would make sheppards pie for dinner tonight. That requires about 15 minutes of oven time. I am not eating the potatoes. I try to avoid them unless I am a raving hormonal lunatic and I want Lay`s potato chips now. Otherwise, I do not eat them.
So I will probably make myself something else with the hamburger. Ho Hum.
Oh yeah, that low carb way of eating is never going to happen with all the people in the house. Unless everyone does it, there is too much temptation. Bread is always around. Pasta and rice are part of meals every day around here. I couldnt do it. So I am staying away from the whites and most definitely potatoes.

I am off. Laundry is calling.