Well that sucketh

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   Some shit went down this past week. I was hospitalized for a infection that I acquired during my surgery. It is called C-Diff aka It`s a Shit Storm! It was bad. And that is not an exaggeration. I woke up Tuesday around 3am with a low grade fever and chills. I bounced back and forth between 99 and 100. I dont get fevers so that is unusual. Diarrhea ensued. I figured it was part of my healing and the stool softener I took cause the Oxy screwed me up in my gut. Oh no no. It was much worse then that. 
  Hubs took me to the ER at 4pm. Long story short...I had 102 fever, 135 tachy heart rate, and dangerously low blood pressure. They admitted me into isolation at 1am. I stayed until Thursday afternoon. I am on high dose antibiotics to kill the spores in my intestines with live culture probiotic to keep it that way. 
  That is the first time i ever felt like I might die. I didnt like it. The way the nurses and Doctors were acting, I count myself as lucky. C-diff kills. I am not elderly but I have a compromised immune system. I could have died. I am still thinking about that. I have decided that I am not going to let moss grow beneath my ass anymore. 
  The hubs is all over me which I like. He realizes that it could have been my final exit too. It is not time for that yet. We have to have some fun first.

  So, I am on a bland diet and I eat very little. It could be a month up to a year before my gut feels semi better. I have learned that I am probably lactose intolerant now. Vegan options in dairy forever. Oils and greasy are out. I had a few bites of a hamburger and learned my lesson. I can tolerate the kefir and soups. Bland is best said the foodie.  Christmas dinner will be interesting.

 That is how I like to end out the year. With a big bang!

I am going slow. Today the dog has a check up at the vet for her teets and I MAY make bon bons but that is not set in stone.

Goodbye To You!

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  In the continuing saga that is my life, I have added a quick December chapter to 2015. I dont work in a office but Matt Bellassai is a hoot. I could use the laughs.     My gallbladder has betrayed me. She is full of stones, inflammed my liver, and making me miserable. Surgery is for this Friday. I had some weird itching that turned into bruising on my thigh. I am waiting the bloodwork to see if it is my liver complaining. It will be outpatient so I can whine in the comfort of my own bed. Dairy will never be my faithful friend again. BooHoo! So I am eating broths, jello, etc. Of course I am losing weight. Good thing but not the reason why.
 That is about all I want to talk about now. I got some bodily maintence stuff to do today. Hair, eyebrows, and a pedi. Gotta look fresh as I can for the surgeon.


Edit: I am propped up on the couch surrounded by pillows and I am watching cooking shows. My surgery was yesterday at 1130a and I came home at 530p. Nobody told me how painful this was going to be. I have had lap procedures before but the cuts in my upper abdomen hurt soooo badly. The oxy is not working long enough to take the next oxy. So I just endure. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Positive! My liver doesn't hurt anymore! For that I will suffer. You only have one liver and you have to treat her like a queen. 
 I am a doer so for me to be stuck on the couch sucks major. But that is okay. I will be a good girl.
I promise. 

Awwww nuts!

 I did not win the contest. :(

 I have no idea who one yet. Fisher nuts will post it on their FB page. I did get a email that shows that my prize is coming on Monday. A $100 visa gift card that I will use for Christmas and a cookbook. They aint sending me the nuts. It was in the PDF when I first found out but they changed it. I guess they figured we can buy our own. That is basically why I entered the contest. Feel kinda violated. (kidding)
   Do I feel bad? Ummm not really. I wasnt expecting to win. I tried really hard to get votes and that is all you can do. I asked but they will not let us know where we ranked in the contest. I was probably dead last. Cause you know, as some people have said, all the other recipes were way better. I had to throw that dig in.
 Thanks for the votes if you helped. I appreciate it!

Christmas time is here

 I am not gonna be a big ole Bah Hum Bug this year. Or at least I will try my hardest. I want to be happy this season. Too much stuff has transpired over this past year that has made it really awful. I lost one of my oldest online friends and I am still partly upset about that. It will take time because I really dont know why. I have some ideas but that is all speculation. I had to lose another friend to blocking because she became a bigger asshole after the first friend dumped me. Surgery. Bad diagnosis. Sick dogs. Etc Etc Etc. It is ending with me most likely having to have a hysterectomy for the new year, two dogs are sick and on meds, and I think the starter might be going on the Jeep. Oh! This is a good one. We get the porch steps repaired and they tell us our porch is leaning. Doesnt need to be fixed right away but the whole thing will have to be replaced. Insurance doesnt cover that. Thousands of dollars. Sometimes I think I am being hexed. Why dont they just kill me and get it ovr with??

   Thanksgiving was good. Food was good. Company was good. I actually had a great time this year. I have been slowly cyber shopping for Christmas. After paying $400 on the vet this past week, I have to be careful. Plus what if I need a new starter! Oh yeah..I am bitching and I didnt want to do that.


I had a ultrasound on my uterus to see if they can see the Adenomyosis. I am pretty bad off with the pain. I dont say cause I have said enough this year about my body. But I have two options at this point..Wait out full blown yer all done Menopause or Hyster. This has been discussed before but it was back burnered. It really has to be dealt with because the pain can be unbearable. I just wonder how long is recovery. I will have to ask those hard questions. If it is done, it will be after the new year. 

That is about it for now. Pray that the jeep will start until I can get a mechanic to look at it. Ugh. We are down to one car at this point.

Menopause makes you hangry

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Must stop eating! Cannot resist holiday sweets! 

 Okay...My internet was down for five days. There was issues with the company for two and I needed a new modem because mine is obsolete. The dude showed up Monday evening and all is right with the world. 
I finally got a call from the neuro and yesterday I was emailed the report. My brain is fine. There are no aneurysms or stenosis or any at all. The neuro said that I show no damage from IIH either so he is back on the * you dont have it* bandwagon. He said the bad news is we dont know what is wrong with you. He is sending me to a neuro ear doctor on Dec 4th. My surgeon is a neuro ear doctor. I am just going to look at this as a 2nd opinion. Maybe a fresh set of eyes will see something the others dont. I have been told by people on boards that my opening pressure with my spinal tap was not borderline. 26 is a high number. It isn't super high but enough to say that I DO have IIH. I am not taking the Diamox. It makes my chest hurt and I feel like I cant breath. I have to control this with diet and use the pills therapeutically.  I get a letter confirming my appt. It said it was from the Yale Stroke clinic. Freaked me out a tad. I think this neuro works in area. I cant dwell on that. That appt is the first Friday of December. 
  The contest voting ends on the 20th. A couple more days and I will find out if I am a finalist. Wish me luck! I really want the grand prize. 
  If it isnt nailed down, I am eating it. It has got to STAHP! I am eating lower sodium but carbs are calling this diabetics  name. I gotta add some fruit and veggies to my life. I refuse to gain the weight I lost cause of a lack of estrogen. I dont make excuses. I pick it up and eat it and I shouldnt. Stop it Heidi! Stop it!

  I have almost all of my Turkey day foods. We are having a turkey! I decided and that is that. I have to pick up my free ham that I will use for Christmas. You spend $400 in groceries during a certain time and you get a freebie as in turkey or ham or chicken or vegetarian lasagna. They used to offer a tofurky but they arent this year. Damn! I was really looking forward to it.  *lol* We will do a marinade on the bird the day before. My mom`s sausage stuffing. Broccoli casserole. And twice baked potatoes. We need a veggie platter too.
This grocery shopping trip will be all about the veggies. Mmm! I lurv Turkey Day!

 ummmm.  Oh. All the junk is gone from the patio and side of house. Blessed be! I hated looking and smelling it. The next project is painting the livingroom. The kid is gonna help. Yes.


So that is all with my saga filled life so far. Looks like fun, huh? 
  

Still waiting for results

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  I am still waiting to hear from the neuro. Probably today and I will update. I am also getting rid of a Malware on this dinosaur lappy. So I will go, fix that and come back when I have news. Damn Dell from Hell. I gotta get a cheap Chromebook at some point.

Tube tomorrow

I enter the tube tomorrow. I am trying not to fret. I have two valiums that will help me deal just fine. I will be having a MRI/MRA/MRV of my brain. It could take about 30 minutes or so. Being loopy and droopy will help me deal with the anxiety.
Wish me luck and send some thoughts/prayers.


 The contest so far has been very positive. I had one person give me a back handed compliment. You know what, if YOU think the other recipes are so drool worthy but you voted for me anyway, keep your votes. I dont want them from you. You have been a bitter bitch from day one. Keep it moving. I have people that love me that will help me get there. Geez. People can never keep the negative to themselves. Always have to stab somebody.

Anyhoo...If you would like to vote again for my Walnut Pesto Pork Chops..go for it. If you dont want to, that is okay. At least you are being honest.

I am going to make some pumpkin bread today and watch the leaves fall out the window.